Hi Kimmi, I had my mastectomy in July with lymph node removal. I was like you and found it really hard to come to terms with my new body. It’s such a shock to your system that all of a sudden something you have had for many years is gone and looking down your landscape is forever changed. You are not alone in struggling Kimmi and it is very normal to feel like this. What has helped me is to gradually look in the mirror at my scar and I thought to myself that this was needed to save my life. It takes a while for your mind to catch up with your body hun. It’s a major op and you have a lot of recovering to do. I thought my husband would look at me differently too but it was the opposite all he could see was me , not that I was defined by the mastectomy. He actually helped me moisturise the scar when I was able to and has been a great shoulder to cry on when I have struggled. I had inflammatory breast cancer so I am not able to get a reconstruction a year but I’m not sure that I want that yet. When you get the silicone prothesis it brings weight again to that side and I found that when I’m wearing it I feel that it gives me some symmetry again. I hope in the coming weeks that you are able to find some acceptance in your new shape hun. Janexxx
