Feel very alone...

Ah Stacey1987, I'm so sorry to hear of the situation you're in. I'm new to all this too having DCIS diagnosed last Tuesday and tbh only bits of what I read from others make any sense at the moment.

This forum is so helpful though. I'm sad to think you're feeling alone. Reach out on here,  everyone is amazing. All I can suggest at the moment is to try not to second guess what will happen at your appointment. It's really hard, but trust in the process and try to take things a step at a time. I'm seeing the surgeon on Wednesday and like you, keep wondering will I be having this done or that done but I'm trying just to wait to see what's suggested then. 

Hope your appointment goes well. Take good care of yourself. 

Hugs to you x

Hi KittyKat50, 

Thank you so much for your reply.

I'm sorry to hear about your diagnosis and I hope you get the best treatment possible.

You must be worried about Wednesday. I'm guessing with it being DCIS they will be able to stop it going further?

I'm trying hard not to second guess it all but my mind likes doing over time always has. I suppose like everyone. The not knowing and waiting is hard.

I hope your appointment goes well too.

Take care of yourself x

Hi 

so sorry you have so much to deal with. Sending positive thoughts try not to jump to the worst possible place.  Let us know how you go at you appointment and remember the McMillan help

line is a great place to chat to someone 

Thank you LLcoolJ.

I'll try Thank you.

I will let you know. Thank you x

HI Stacey1987

Sorry you find yourself here with the worry of thinking you have cancer.  First of all, just to reassure you the tiredness you feel is quite possibly just due the worry that you are /have been feeling.  I was diagnosed over 5 years ago and had a 15mm lump and 54mm of DCIS.  I was called back after my first ever mammogram and wasn't concerned in the slightest as I thought 'you'd know if you had cancer'.  I had absolutely no symptoms, hadn't felt a lump or anything and certainly didn't feel any differently in myself.

I think the only advice I can give (which I know won't really be achievable) is try not to think about it and wait for the scans to confirm or the opposite (hopefully!). With any luck, it is just due to the changes in your body due to stopping the breast feeding and it is just a harmless cyst.  If the doctors said there was a shadow in your womb, have they sent you for further tests in relation to this?

Please don't use Google at is is woefully out of date on many things.  Stick to trusted sites. Macmillan, breastcancerorg.uk and cancer research sites, but to be honest nothing will tell you anything other than the doctors who doing the tests.  Once you know the results of tests, then maybe that is the time to be reviewing further information.

I do hope and keep all fingers and toes crossed that you have not got cancer and everything is good news for you.  

As you are not with your husband, do you have a close friend you could confide in as you don't want to worry your Mum?  If you'd rather not - just keep coming on here as we are all here for you.

Kindest wishes, Lesley

Hi Stacey1987

Welcome to the forum and sorry to hear that you may have breast cancer.  Like you when I found my lymph two years ago I had the strong feeling that I had breast cancer and I was right.  However it was caught early and after having chemo, surgery and radiotherapy I have been cancer free for nearly a year and a half.

It may not be cancer but if it is breast cancer is very treatable and your medical team will do everything in their power to make sure you get better.

Hopefully it won't turn out to be cancer. But if you do everyone on this forum will be routing for you.

Best of luck with your appointment when it happens.

Best wishes

Daisy53 

Hi LesleyHelen,

Thank you for your reply. 

That must have been a big shock to you completely unexpecting that diagnosis... how did it all work out for you? I hope you have recovered.

When my doctor said about the shadow she didn't offer to refer me back, maybe I should have said something but I was taken aback by being referred to the breast clinic.

I know I shouldn't use Google, I will defo use the sites you have suggested in future.

Thank you for your support x

Thank you so much I hope so too.

I have my cousin coming with me tomorrow as she offered, I didn't want to ask her as her Mum died of breast cancer in 1992. I can talk to her but worry about bringing sad memories into her head again.

Hi Stacey1987

How did it go yesterday?  I hope you were given some reassurance? Did they give you any idea of what the lump could be or are you still on the 'waiting game'?

It might be worth asking your doctor about the shadow in your womb, but presumably as the doctor's letter didn't say anything further, they aren't overly worried about it - but it will still be worth asking for more information.

I wouldn't worry about your cousin.  My brother's wife died of breast cancer and I was most worried about telling him I had it above anyone else (he doesn't live near me), but he was fine and any time we meet, he's happy to talk as it means talking about his wife.  (She died in 2014 and I was diagnosed in 2017).  I think it brings him comfort to talk about her, even if it means talking about her in relation to the cancer. On the other hand, he is a bloke and he's forgotten to ask about my annual check ups for the last 3 years - says he presumes they are ok as I haven't said any different, ha, ha.

As you can tell by the date of when I was diagnosed, (I was ER+ type and DCIS which meant 5 years of tablets) I finished all my treatment in August this year, so thank you - all recovered now.  The one thing that I will say, IF it does turn out to be BC, is that the thought of the treatment was far worse than the 'actual' for me.  But that was because I didn't need chemotherapy. As Daisy says, it is eminently treatable these days and you did the right thing going to get t he lump checked out straight away.

Kindest Wishes, Lesley