Mastectomy

Hi AngelaT211 welcome to the forum and I am so sorry to hear about what is happening for you and how you are feeling..

Believe me when I say to you that being on here you will never be alone as we all know what you may be feeling, why and like you finding it difficult to  understand. Crying is totally normal after what has happened for you and that sadness may be because you have lost a part of you. Yes it was a breast and yes it had Cancer in, but it was yours and now its not there. It could be about how you feel about that or it could be because you are not sure what that is going to look like.

Please keep in touch and please continue to post as there are loads of us on here who know where you are coming from and you have a good cry if thats what helps you to get through this, and get through this you will. 

Sending some huge big hugs your way for now. xxxx

Thankyou so much , that really helps. I've felt like I'm losing my mind. My chemo made me so sick I was hospitalized twice, I lost all my hair immediately, still hadnt processed the cancer even at that stage. I've a second surgery to get in a few months and radiotherapy too so a little bit ahead yet but I just want to get my strength back at this point. I hsvent the fight I've always had. Feel like I'm in a strangers body 

X 

It's always great when the medical team moves fast, but it leaves little time to even start getting to grips with what is happening. Then there are the physical changes you described, which for many people tie in with the sense of identity and shake things that have always been stable. Losing a boob is significant, so  yeah, crying and feeling like mourning is not unusual. is right about the forum. People here really care about each other, and when we ask how things are going and how someone is feeling it is because we really want to know and people here do their best to help one another. Welcome to the community. 

Hi thankyou so much , it really helps to know there are people out there , it means a lot 

Angela x 

Hi Angela T211, I also had a mastectomy 3 weeks ago now. I have also been through similar reactions to you. I was told at my 2 week follow up from surgery that I had made the right choice to go ahead with a mastectomy.  I had already undergone 2 lumpectomy which had not got clear margins, I also have added complications in that I have connective tissue disease & this was an issue in receiving radiotherapy in so much that it would only be given to me if it was felt the benefits would outweigh the side effects I would have from this type of treatment. I am pleased to know that I made the right choice as to getting rid of the breast cancer , yet I am still very emotionally & physically fragile & find that I am quite low in spirit. It is very hard talking about your feelings and this is where a group like this is great. Keep moving forward & try to focus on it getting better in time , but don't feel guilty about feeling upset. I am certain it is good for us to work through the emotions, & allow it to make you stronger in the long run. I wish you all the best in your journey. Keep talking when you need to. Alison

Hi Alison 

Thankyou for your kind words. I never realised the emotional impact this would have on my body. It started with a lumpectomy only to find a second cancer after an MRI and that it had spread to my lymph nodes. A mastectomy was compulsory. I also hadnt accounted for the chemotherapy doing any damage to the rest of my body. I have now been left with colitis which is extremely debilitating. I'm a single parent so I've felt very lonely and isolated at times. It's a learning curve as you go through the journey, it really is .

Stay strong

Angela 

Hi AngelaT211

I had a mastectomy on the 17th August my world fell apart as soon as I got home from the hospital the reality set in. I am now 2weeks in I feel a lot better I don't cry  much now but I still have my moments. It does get a bit easier as time goes on and I keep thinking at the end of the day I may now be cancer free xx