When it finally hits you…6 days Post Op - I have cancer!!

Yes.  I think we do that a lot.  Protect others. Walk forwards. And I’m a way that’s helpful but we do break down. We ha r to feel our feelings.  I usually go a million miles an hour and now have toearn to rest and feel ok with that.  Thanks got your post and the reminder to be kind to ourselves

totally agree. I’m usually the get up and go person all the time, resting doesn’t come naturally. My surgery was last Monday so have to do as I’m told. Had to come off HRT so GP put me on anti-depressants as the symptoms were terrible. They make me feel numb I’m hoping that I don’t come down with a bang once I come off them as I have to keep reminding myself I have cancer !

good to speak to people going through this journey too , sending positive vibes to you all x

Hi  Blossom247  

everything you’re going thru is natural you will learn that you now come first and stop trying to be what everyone else wants you to be . Unless they have been there themselves they really don’t know what to say . When you up to having a giggle and some of the things people say there is a thread all about it . People letting off steam but it is funny .

found the link 

https://community.macmillan.org.uk/cancer_types/chat-breast-cancer/f/questions-about-diagnosis-and-treatment/222074/starting-to-avoid-people-because-of-the-silly-things-they-say

Inwas lucky in one way that things  moved so fast I didn’t have time to crash ( story on profile ) i had  8 days from diagnosis to MX op 

My hubby hates illness so went into silent mode . Two things stick in my mind giving him books to read and being in bed one night repeating to myself “ I have cancer “ because I wasn’t using the word . Not for everyone but it worked for me  
you’ve arrived at the right place for answers and support have a good browse around the threads some interesting ones . Read some profiles there are lots of success stories .

Awake is a good thread if you are awake thru the night .

im sure others will be along to chat keep posting 

I completely empathise.  My mum had cancer. My mother in law had cancer. I'm still young (54). I don't have cancer. I can't have cancer. I have a 13yo son and a husband whom I promised we'd grow old together...

...but I have cancer. I have stage 2 IDC HER2 negative which, since diagnosis 5 weeks before surgery, has metastases on spine, a left rib and my pelvis. First surgery 2nd November, lumpectomy and sentinel node removal, which lab results demanded I have auxiliary node clearance.  Tests to scans to more tests and scans. As you say, a whirlwind. 

Post 2nd surgery forced me to slow down, and like you, it hit me like a tonne of bricks.

You're not alone, and you’ll probably take a week or three getting your head around it. Sending you love and prayers.

Kathryn x.

I have the same type of bc as you and I did exactly the same. I was diagnosed shortly before Christmas and ignored it until the new year when we knew exactly what surgery I'd be having and when and that's when we told the kids, family and friends. 

Can totally relate to whirlwind of appts feeling guilty for friends coming with me to support me or drop me down to hospital as hubby had to deal with the kids. I don't accept help willingly so this is quite difficult for me. 

We have a very pragmatic positive approach but I didn't ugly cry until 2 nights before the surgery when I felt alone and broken and then lost it again when they came to take me to surgery and the actual reality of having the mastectomy was very real. 

Weirdly I can totally accept the fact that there isn't a boob there. Can't see the scars as the dressing is still on but I struggle with body image when I wear those horrific una boob post surgery bras - I swear they will push me over the edge. 

But we just take each day as it comes and I now acknowledge that the medicinal need to sit and binge watch some tv is absolutely necessary, that and afternoon naps are now a thing again 

You'll get days when it does hit you like a ton of bricks, you are in pain or uncomfortable but there are other days when you feel normal and not a cancer patient andb it those days we live for