I found a lump in my left breast 3 weeks ago and was referred to hospital. Had mammogram, ultrasound & biopsies on Monday & call from consultant yesterday confirmed it is malignant as is a lymph node. I have an appointment to see consultant next Thursday to advise me about cancer type/grade and treatment plan. Today I got a call from radiology dept calling me in the day after my consultant appointment for a biopsy by x-ray on another separate area of calcification & I am really frightened that this means it has spread & will also delay my treatment plan.
I feel like I am in a nightmare that I can’t wake up from.
My husband & daughter are being really positive and I feel like I am letting them down by my negative thoughts and emotional state - being tearful on & off. I haven’t told other members of my family because it is my dad’s 80th party tomorrow & I don’t want to spoil it for them - I am crying off by saying I have a positive LFT for COVID (how ironic that COVID has its benefits!!) as I know I won’t be able to get through it,
I don’t normally do support groups as I am not good at expressing emotions, although I have been a Macmillan donator for about 15 years since I saw a programme about a young mum with terminal cancer & how Macmillan helped her and her family. I am hoping that I can draw comfort and support from others who have been or are going through this journey.
ps - sorry for being so long-winded
Hi Jules022
I know it all seems like everything is out of our control when we are diagnosed with breast cancer - we aren’t ill and life is carrying on and then Boom ! We enter a completely different world , and I think most people would say the lack of control is really hard. What I would say is that a diagnosis is not a one time thing, and treatment plans can change all the way along - I had an invasive lump and then was doing to have extensive DCIS (calcifications) during surgery , not picked up on any scans- if you click on my name you will see my treatment plan and how my diagnosis panned out.
It may seem like bad news but what you need to think is that the team treating you are wanting to give you the best possible outcome , and if that invokes more tests and checks , although it may seem like they are torturing you , they are just doing their job and making sure that happens.
The start of the process and the waiting are truly the very worst part , once you have your treatment plan you will honestly start to feel more in control and able to cope.
Good luck with everythjng
Jo x
You're in shock with diagnosis n traumatised by various firsts, scans, medical jargon, feeling this is way massive than anything you experienced.
Firstly, it's OK not to feel OK crying is a release, I have had so many moments like u. Rber BC is so treatable.
Stay with the facts, otherwise you will feel everything exponentially, take a step at a time
You got this...rely on medical team n also us here for support n general info
Cx
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