my emotions are all over the place following a grade 1 diagnosis which I received only yesterday. It seems over the top to react so dramatically when I’ve been told it’s such an early stage and prognosis seems good from what I read, but I still feel like I’ve hit by an enormous bow wave. I know I’ll be having a lumpectomy but until I see the consultant next Friday I don’t know any more than that so have been trying to read up on treatment plans and what others have been going through . Am feeling quite tired at the moment (thought it was just the onset of winter and getting older) , my sleep is now quite disturbed and it’s hard to keep focussed on other things as my brain keeps drifting back to you know what . I’ve been taking HRT for some years (think I’m post menopause) so am wondering if I have now done the right thing but there’s no history of BC in the family, I’m not overweight and don’t drink very much.
Hi
You can't beat yourself up over past decisions about HRT
I am so sorry about your recent diagnosis. It's all consuming and you will feel like being in a nightmare rollercoaster, so much to take in and emotions all over the place!
None of us quite cracked the sleeping code just yet...there is a forum here called "Awake" for some ladies who are facing this.
You will find your way around things, as you've already made a headstart by what you've said.
Ask away and the ladies here are so supportive and lovely!
C x
Claud272 is absolutely right. Don't beat yourself up! You chose to go on t and I am sure it was the right thing to do at the time, I'm also sure you did it for all the right reasons.
When I got my oestrogen positive progesterone positive diagnosis I kind of blamed myself for having been on HRT off and on 17 years and wondered how much it contributed to my developing a malignant lump. It upset me like it upsets you. My lovely breast care nurse had a long chat with me after I had spoken to the consultant when I got the first biopsy results. She told me "stop it". She told me that there are many many women who are on HRT all their lives and never get breast cancer and there are others who who never use HRT and develop the condition. She she told me that there were just two reasons why I got breast cancer and I couldn't control either of them. One I was a woman and to I was getting older!
You are going through the worst time at the moment, as everyone will tell you, be kind to yourself and treat yourself like you would your best friend. There are lots of people here who will support you virtually, you are not alone x
Hi 2gether . Re your comments about HRT. I too was on HRT fir 4 years and ironically was about to stop it when my screening picked up a small early BC. I'm having surgery on Tuesday and then most likely 5 days of radiotherapy then hormone therapy ( I'm ER/PR +) so BC is hormone driven
I went on HRT at 53 due to being diagnosed with osteoporosis in my spine only which is entirely due to low oestrogen I was advised ( I went through menopause at 45)
Like you no other risk factors for BC and in fact was considered very low risk hence the HRT. It did its job brilliantly re my bone density and I am now osteopenic with improved spinal bone density.
I decided I was not going to give myself a hard time about the decision to take it. I made the best decision I could and the comments shared by by her BC nurse are spot on. The reality is I will never know so I consider its wasted energy. I think as women we are often quick to blame ourselves so please don't
Like me your BC its been picked up super early and I have had nothing but very reassuring comments from my consultant and nurses so please feel positive about the future. Its natural to have good and bad days but it is true that once you're on your treatment plan things feel a lot better
Much love xx
Thank you for giving so much reassurance - you’re right when we decide to take HRT it’s not a decision made lightly and there are always good reasons for taking it, even if we know it comes with slight risks. looking through everyone’s stories I know none of us are alone in this , its so comforting to be able to reach out to others and share our feelings
sending love and strength to everyone on this journey xx
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