Mastectomy yesterday and darent look

I've tried to write an answer with some advice but nothing sounds right as I really don't know what type of person you are. I'm a positive outlook person and have been since June when I was diagnosed.

All I can say is to take each day as it comes and to listen to your body, only you know how you feel. Speak to your breast care nurse and tell her how you feel. I'm sure she will be able to give you good advice. 

The most important thing is your still alive and got a life in front of you minus a lump of fatty tissue that tried to kill you. Look on the positive side of things. 

I had left breast and lymph nodes removed 18 days ago. The drains are the worst bit. 14 days then had them off, so much more comfortable.  My scar goes under arm and around back as well because of  node removal so yours may be better. I couldn't feel anything, .most of it is still numb and may stay this way. However because of glue used instead of stitches I did not use any creams for about 10 days. My scar is rough so for now I'm using vaseline to soothe it. My surgeon told me not to waste money on expensive cream. I'm having radiotherapy soon then will be on Palbociclib for 12 months and Letrozole longer. I can't have implant until after radiotherapy and NHS waiting is at least 18 months. 

Tree climber its horrible! Unfair and unjust and you will be all over the place, there is no getting away from this. However I feel a lot better mentally every day, slow uphill climb but it's happening.  Physically just endure the drains, it's better than fluid building inside you and won't be for long...if you need me I'm here as we are both going along the same treatment route. 

Try and sleep xx