I'm a newbie, halfway chemo scan on Thursday

Hi Deviner, welcome. You’re halfway there and that’s amazing, hopefully the scan will show your perseverance and commitment to the chemo will have worked. Everything about this is scary, we all feel as you do and if it helps I think we can all comfort eat! I know I do. And the god damn steroids don’t help!!
You sound like you’ve had a really tough couple of years and that takes it’s toll so try and cut yourself some slack. Instead of looking at yourself and feeling rubbish, imagine everything you’ve gone through wasn’t actually you, imagine it’s all happening to your best friend, what do you think about how she’s coped with that divorce, protecting and caring for her kids, moving home and leaving the life she had, getting that crappy diagnosis and facing her chemo and all that it brings. She looks quite awesome now I hope!! We are always so hard on ourselves in away we aren’t looking at others, I sometimes imagine I’m watching a storyline on a drama, what do I think now? Sometimes changing your perspective let’s you see a situation differently.

I separated from my husband 3 years ago in October and I’m waiting for my decree absolute now. I have a 12 year old. Then this happened and probably, much like you I thought I didn’t have the energy left but here we are!!  You’re halfway through, well done xx none of us can be positive all the time so be kind to yourself. Hopefully you get some sleep, all the best and good luck xx

Hi there, halfway through chemo is a great place to be and, from one positive person to another, it's ok to have a few shitty down days.  When I feel crap I usually take myself out for a walk, but that’s not possible in the middle of the night and the mind runs away, so this group is pretty good.  I have been blogging about my cancer experience as that has helped me and I have told family, friends and colleagues openly as I know I get energy from their support.  I hope you have good support around you to help over the coming weeks and months,   I agree with Anna, you sounds pretty awesome in what you have managed so far and today is another day.  You take care now xx

Hi Deviner

Anyone that is a single mum to boys is a super hero as far as I'm concerned. I separated from my husband in 2005 and my boys were so little - they are now 21 & 18 and fabulous young men. I'm with a new partner now but I was a single mum for a long time and it was tough so I know exactly what you're going through - and I didn't have cancer to contend with either!

Once your treatment is over and you're out the other side just think what an inspiration you are to your boys.

Thank you thank you thank you, im feeling so much more positive today, your kinds words have really given me a boost. Im up since 8 and feel like im coming out of the fog from my last chemo on Thursday.  Divorce is never easy, but im so glad im not with him going through this he made my life hell and I lived in fear.  So my boys have a new half brother last week which was probably affecting me too.  But i know im doing an amazing job with them, so thanks for reminding me of that.  Its goid to get your divorce through. Its a new start, just mine came with lockdown!!! What stage are you at with treatment? I know chemo is working, I can feel it in my breast, so i should stop panicking. Thank you again and good lucj to you tok on your journey! 

Im taking my boys out for walk today, sorting their school uniforms, back k to mammy duties! I have great support around me too, thank god... So Iguess i was meant to be here! And thank you Jacala for reminding me my journey is not done romantically, i miss having a partner and Im very down on myself because of weight gain etc.. But i can deal with that after ive beaten cancer.. Onwards and upwards...