Hi, its 2 am and here i am again sitting on the sofa alone in the middle of the night not being able to sleep. After being diagnosed with breast cancer 5 weeks ago and undergoing a lumpectomy last week, I am finding my brain is constantly thinking and asking questions about all sorts of cancer related things, my legs are keen to get going - fidgeting especially at night to the point where i cant sleep. Even though I have had my surgery, and I look at the dressings and bruising on my breast every morning whilst doing my exercises, it still feels unreal and not me, like a dream which I am being dragged into and cant stop. I have a little cry from time to time, and talk about it to my husband, and friends but I feel disconnected from it, is this normal, what is normal anymore? I now, like many of you out there, have to wait 3-4 weeks for the results to ensure clear margins were taken and the sentinel nodes are clear of any sign of cancer. Not sure when the radiotherapy will start, suppose that depends on how well the wound heals and the results. Hormones meds were discussed also and important to start quickly, again not sure if these are usually commenced before radiotherapy or afterwards, or should be started after surgery, going to call Breast Cancer Nurse tomorrow to establish, although Im not keen to start these after reading some of the comments, but I have no choice really as I am ER+. Sorry for going on, as I say, I cant turn my brain off!!!
Good luck Beachy1 for Mon.Fingers crossed all will be good.I am just behind everyone here,was suppose to have my opp tomorrow,but have been put back until next Thurs.diagnosed late June.Am also expecting to go on the dreaded tablets,don,t know which one yet though,some with side effects worse than others but I guess some of us might get away with some of the side effect.
Hi 5
to us all,we can do this,simply because we have to 
