I may have breast cancer, and it may be advanced

Good luck! Go to bed early tonight so that if you can’t sleep much, you at least do sleep for some time. Take a paper and a pen & list of questions for the doc & feel free to record the conversation on your phone (if doc says it’s OK) so you aren’t thrown by the emotion of it. Don’t feel the need to tell yourself all of the worst outcomes already. Let the doctor listen to your story clearly and s/he can take over that analytical part. 

Thank you very much for your response. I will do so, and try not to think about it too much. 

Please let us know how it goes tomorrow, and report back. I and others here will be thinking of you. 

Yes I will, and thank you very much for your support.

Hi, I just came back from the doctor, but as the palpation was a little bit difficult, she requested that I do an ultrasound for further checks. She did notice a little bit of heaviness on my left breast, whereas she felt a bit of retraction of fibres on the right. So I’m scheduled for an ultrasound sound on Wednesday morning, and in the meantime we did a blood test to see if that could explain the nausea and headaches. She also felt the dent in my skull, but for now she didn’t look too worried about it and preferred to start with the blood test. Waiting for those results on Wednesday.

Wednesday morning is nice and soon - for bloods and US.

I don’t know what the dent in your skull could signify, but it must be a relief that the doc is not unduly worried about that. 

getting through the waiting! 

In any event breast cancer would not be your fault. Athletes have gotten it.

When I was going through chemo, I had loads of dents in my skull from water retention from when I put my headphones over my head. Now my hair is growing back, I just checked my skull and I still have a groove on it and I haven't used those type of headphones for months so it isn't that. The dent on your skull is maybe just the shape of your head, like mine. We don't know the shape of our head until we have no hair!

Good luck with your ultrasound - is it the breast cancer clinic you re being sent to? 

Hi,

I’m really trying to tell myself that, but it’s not easy to believe. I have treated my body so badly lately, and it just feels like this its way of retaliating, and I have no one else to blame but myself. The doctor did say she could feel I had a lot of fear and anguish, and what sounded like a bit of depression, and that it would take time navigating all that. I’m thinking maybe I should try seeing a psy, it might help me with all that. 

Hi,

I cut my hair short very often, and the first few times I did feel my skull and noticed it was not perfectly round. But this I think was normal and just the shape of my skull indeed. What made me panic about this dent is that it definitely wasn’t there before, and I haven’t really had any shock to the head lately, nor wear headphones. That coupled with my recurring headaches and nausea, I kinda got scared this wasn’t normal. 
the doctor still didn’t feel too alarmed when she felt my skull, and said we should do a blood test first see if this could explain the headaches and nausea. Waiting for the results tomorrow to see what they say.

I’m going to a breast clinic indeed for the ultrasound tomorrow