In shock

Again, similar situation to what I experienced. MRI showed up a smaller spot near the original one found on previous scans. They had to find out on an ultrasound biopsy whether this was the tail end of the original one they already knew about or a separate one entirely so Surgeon could get clear margins. I do feel for you. You do need to know what this actually is and be really brave so no surprises later down the line. I have found ultrasound to be my best friend, and the Radiographers. Keep calm Captain Mainwaring.

Hey lovely absolutely sound ms very familiar. I didn’t have a lump mine was an incidental finding the nurse just said as it’s another 10 years till your screened let’s just give them both the once over. Small dark spot found and biopsy booked it never crossed my mind it could be the c word.. even when the consultant rang me and said err can you come in today still didn’t click so off I trot on my own and boom.. world turned upside down, I’m 40.

surgery booked there and then for 4 weeks later but didn’t have hers2 results yet so that threw me. And you learn words you wish you didn’t, hormone receptive, hers2 negative or positive. 
I went from ranting like a crazy lady, dark humour, sobbing and even refusing to get out of bed as didn’t want the held tilt of it will be fine… stay focused, stay positive but you are allowed to feel pants and cry for no reason it’s shock. 

had surgery 2 weeks ago and as another lady says do not underestimate it., I struggled with the fact I felt fine but was going to be made poorly if that makes sense and you feel like you have lost control over your own body. They are saving my life and I felt like I was being a brat but they had to explain things to me and If you don’t understand what they are saying make them slow down, go at your speed to let things sink in.

I am waiting on results from biopsy of nodes and margins for next plan of attack.

Oh God, same here Hellcat. I was bouncingly fit before my operation - best if you are. It's totally normal to feel like that. I hated the cancer inside my breasts and wanted to tear it out with my bare hands. Felt very cheated and often got upset inside thinking about how everyone else was having a good time, but I couldn't.

It’s crazy isn’t it, I recovered quicker when I had spinal surgery. I’m trying a train journey tomorrow with my boy as he has missed his mummy..its just is never ending and there is still more to come so at the moment I’m back to the dark humour and my friends sending me wig suggestions if I do lose my hair.. they want me to rock the Richard O’Brien look which is fine as long as it’s not uncle fester xx

So sorry to hear that .  I get the feeling that symptoms and treatments can turn on a sixpence. I don’t know about you but  I feel like I should be putting a brave face on for every one else when  really I want to just have a good cry or just feel a bit sorry for myself until I  process the diagnosis myself

Exactly, my parents and sisters were the worst absolutely heart in the right place but I needed to process it first before dealing with there upset may sound selfish but I couldn’t help it. 

if it takes you having a day in bed so process do it, if it takes you sobbing your heart out do it.. there is no right or wrong and you have to do what you want to do and how you want to deal with it.  Xx

Hello!  I had my surgery 10 days ago   things have moved fast.  7 weeks from no idea to mastectomy.  It's been a whirlwind of emotions and appointments  but somehow it eventually  sank in   am now awaiting lymph node results to decide if I need further treatment     I've had company for 3 weeks and now alone but plenty of friends and family for support 

I wish you luck and send you hugs.  

Hi all, I have surgery tomorrow and already I’m jumping ahead to how I’m going to cope with the wait for results after that and how I will deal with any further treatment……. I wish I could just focus on one step at a time because I feel like my head is too overcrowded with ‘what ifs’ and emotions are running wild……I’m sick of crying!!

Best wishes to all x

Hi Mrs Polly, good luck tomorrow with your surgery.

Sending you big hugs for tomorrow x

Not sure what you having done surgery wise (I may have missed that) but for me the surgery was the big thing as it meant they could get the cancer out. It was 3 weeks from surgery to results and time did go by. Although I admit I got very wound up a few days before and was very weepy. My days were filled with naps, reading and you'd be surprising how long it takes to have a shower, wash hair and put some comfy clothes on. Exhausting at the beginning. Whatever  helps you keep your mind busy is good so stock up on books, stuff on TV, some gentle walks etc. I went on the basis that if it was ,really bad news they would contact me. The waiting game can be hard as my mind had a tendency to think the worst. Write down some questions and ask your breast nurse or post on here. Nothing is a silly question - most of us have been there and can relate. Good luck with the surgery x