Just been diagnosed invasive ductal carciinoma

Hi, I’m new to the site I’ve only just joined today. I had a letter from the breast clinic 2 weeks ago saying I had to go for an assessment following a routine mammogram. Had another mammogram, scan and biopsy on 18th June and had the results a week later (last Wednesday) the radiologist told me she was 99% positive but it still came as a shock being told I had grade 1, oestrogen +invasive ductal cancer 12mm, haven’t had the results of the HER2 test yet,  I was sure she said 2mm the week before, but I think I blanked most of it out. I just can’t get my head around it and keep hoping I’ll wake up. I haven’t told many people just my immediate family. I feel embarrassed which is kind of ridiculous and damaged, but I think that’s just my mind going nuts. I’ve had inflammatory bowel disease for 32 years so I’ve had lots of hospital visits in that time, but this has hit me for six. Trying my best to stay positive and I was until last Thursday but now I just can’t stop crying.           Best wishes to you all.   Diane x