I want to say hello again. I was a member. However, I have not contributed for quite some time due to one minor disaster after another. Also, I know that I can get into a "can't be bothered." routine with a lot of things, not just my Cancer. Personally, I blame it on my Hormones. I've also been having so much frustration with my newish Laptop. That I feel at times that I would like to scream at it. Then I want to throw it out of the window. The only problem is that I live on the Ground floor.
I go through phases. One moment I feel very calm-I often say to myself, * it happened; there is nothing that I could have done about it—time to move on. * I feel very fortunate that my cancer was caught relatively early. I had a routine Mammogram where the *Stage 2.* darling was quickly spotted.
And then, without warning, completely out of the blue. I can feel overwhelmed, feeling anxious or panicky. I then have to stop what I'm doing. And just sit or lay on the couch until I feel normal again-I'm much more relaxed. I can feel better reasonably quickly or spend half a day or more just relaxing, not even reading a book. This feeling is mainly associated with my thinking about my Cancer. That I had in 2018.
I still don't feel 100% relaxed looking at myself in a mirror. It's just something that I have to do. But I'm making small steps. And my right bobie is starting to feel more natural. Stronger. I know that *I must* discipline my self; to be much more robust and braver.
Until next time.
Golden Roses.
Bye for now.
Golden Roses.
Hi and welcome back to the Online Community. I just dropped in and noticed you've not had a reply just yet. I've had a different cancer than you but I can totally empathise with the range of emotions you're going through. You've had cancer, it's been removed but you get the odd niggly day when your mind goes into overdrive over nothing.
I'm sure some of the ladies on this extremely busy forum will be along to answer you soon but in the meantime why not take a look at the Life after cancer forum (just click on the link I've created) It'll reassure you that everything you're going through is normal. It might prevent you chucking your laptop out the window as well!
It’s always helpful to others if you write a little something (or a lot) about yourself and your journey to date. You can enter it into your profile (click on your username and select “Profile”) It’s helpful to other members with a similar diagnosis who can then hopefully answer your questions. It also means that you don't have to keep repeating yourself. You can amend or update it at any time.
Sending you welcoming hugs, B xx 
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