I'm at the start of this journey

Hi. I was the same, no emotion. Breast cancer diagnosis last August. Surgery and just going through chemo. I’ve always felt that it’s something to get through and I’m very practical. I’ve not had any different emotions. But everybody is different and you do need to go through the stages. Make sure you have support around you and speak to people who can and will help. It can help to make things clearer and give you facts. I’ve found taking it day by day helps. And be kind to yourself!! And what a lovely son you have. I also have a son who has made my tea tonight and walked the dog and he’s just 15. Your friends and family will help!! So take it and share your feelings with them, whatever they are 

Hi! Yeah I get how your feeling. I was diagnosed 22nd Dec and I've got my surgery booked for next Thursday. I've not cried once. I mostly just want the waiting to be over and to get on with it. I don't know if it's just unreal still. But we will see when treatment starts. 

That's great you have your son with you at appointments I bet that really helps. I never thought to ask to record meetings. What a great idea. 

Did you find the cancer yourself? 

Hope your appointment goes well on Thursday

thank you so much for your reply, having my son is an indescribable pleasure and help and you know this having a son yourself. i am more worried about him and my daughter than myself. still numb. taking it day by day and being in the moment is the only way

waiting is the worse. i am so composed i cant believe it, like yourself not a tear, on my Thursday appointment we are not only recording the appointment but also my daughter will be listening live on whatsapp. it is SO helpful to be able to listen again to the things the consultant said.

are you having surgery tomorrow thursday? wishing you an ease one. what surgery are you having, do you have a support group.

i did not find it myself, what happened was my nipple changed color, consistency, it became dry and itchy, went to see gp who thought it was dermatological and gave me a cream, 2 weeks later back to gp and taking pictures of the nipple, then gp sent me to breast clinic, within a week i saw consultant at the same time i had a mamogram, then and ultrasound where they took byopsis and injected staples to mark the spots followed by another mamo and then the consultant who gave me an appointment for the results the following thursday when we recorded and heard the news it is a small lump near the nipple and it has gone also to the underarm lymph nodes.

Oh wow that's ace. Such a good idea ! How old are your kids?  

Sorry, no it's Thursday 18th. I actually went for surgery a few weeks ago, went into theatre, went to sleep and woke up to be told the surgery couldn't be done because I had an allergic reaction to the blue dye. I ended up staying in over night. But I'm fine now! So I'm having a therapeutic mammoplasty and sentinel lymph biopsy. (Without the blue dye lol). 

So I feel a bit more stressed lately thinking this bloody thing is growing inside of me. I've got a lovely hubby at home and family and friends near by. We talk every week. But I don't like being fussed so I prefer these forums, if that makes sense. 

I hope your appointment goes well tomorrow? Keep us updated ! 

I agree. My sadness and worry is for my son. I’m not worried about me, I am totally worried about the future for him so I can see how you feel. I have tried to be as open and honest as I can and I am giving him all the advice and support I can give him for the future. He’s 15 so it’s not the best age, although there’s never a good age. Day by day!! And don’t be too tough on yourself. 

You did make me chuckle. I am the same. Don’t want any fuss so I am liking the forum. Try not to worry about the time to your surgery, it will be here soon. And they will have it all in hand. I had never had any surgery before, it went well and I am sure yours will. Be kind to yourself afterward. You will need to heal . Take care

waw the blue dye, im allergic to iodine, wonder if blue dye too...my kids are not so kids any more LOL. I will be 72 in march and I have 2 grandchildren 10 and 12. so my children are grown up and the best support I can ask for. I am being very calm, result this evening.