Welcome Lizzy 63 to the site . Can I ask what stage in your roller coaster journey you are? It will help us all to assist /assure you better if we know a few details. Sending you my best wishes and a virtual hug too xx
What brings you to visit us here on the forum? Why don't you tell us a bit about yourself and whats been happening for you and we can see if we can be of any help or support for you.xx
I was diagnosed with squamous cell breast cancer in November 2020. Thankfully the op removed the cancer but further tests revealed I was at high risk of a return. I’ve therefore just had my first (of 3) cycle of chemo and will then have radiotherapy. I’m so grateful for all the treatment and care I’ve received and the speed with which it was dealt with but I still feel like this isn’t actually happening to me and I’m just watching on. Does that make sense?
Hi Lizzy 63. yes it is all a bit surreal and things don't really register properly somehow in the earlier stages. I don't think it properly hit me until I'd had the last radiotherapy session. I rang the bell and expected to feel exilerated but instead burst into tears! After about 24 hours ,I shook myself metaphorically and reflected on how grateful I was to have had all the treatment and come out the other side unscathed. Since then despite Covid 19 I have tried to enjoy life as much as I can and take notice of the many good things that are happening despite all the restrictions . Wishing you well on your journey and sending hugs xxKwissy
I have also been diagnosed with Squamous Cell breast cancer I have been unable to find this happen to anybody else, I also got sepsis at the same time my operation had to be an emergency one to save my life. I am just coming to the end of chemotherapy and starting radiotherapy soon. I have not felt numb but just isolated as nobody gets it.
I’m glad you’re coming towards the end of treatment. It is hard going but stay positive. I know what you mean about the isolation as even though you may have friends who support you they really don’t know what you’re going through every day. It’s hard to explain and you don’t really want to burden people with things so you just carry on. I try not to dwell on things too much now and am just thankful for everything that has been done for me. I’m not one for group sessions but my Breast Care Nurses have been really supportive. Have you spoken to your nurses? They could put you in touch with other women in the same situation if that’s something that would help you. Stay strong and take care xx
