Hi Fi, Sorry to hear your news. It is a lot to take in, especially as you don't have a partner to support you. I found support from my daughter and my friends. Once you get all the details about your cancer and know what your treatment plan is, it is a case of taking things one step at a time. The community here are very supportive and will be there for you to rant at and to be listened to. Take care of yourself.
A very warm welcome to the online community, though sorry you have a reason to join us.
As Lesley63 has said, a diagnosis is a lot to take in and it takes time to process. It's understandable to be feeling the way you are but please be assured that breast cancer is very treatable and outcomes are excellent. There are lots of us here who have been through treatment and are now out the other side and getting on with life.
It sounds like you have quite a lot of stress at the moment which is probably making everything harder but it really is a case of taking it one step at a time - the next minute, the next hour, the next day - then one day it's done.
It seems weird, but most people do feel better once they have a treatment plan. The beginning is so difficult and the waiting can seem never-ending. Distraction is often the most useful thing, try to forget it for a while and get absorbed in something. There's probably a lot taking your attention just now but try to also distract yourself with something you enjoy.
Treatment is do-able and often not as bad as we imagine it. I had chemo, surgery and radiotherapy and kept fairly well through it all and was able to keep exercising and having a close to normal life.
We are a large and friendly group and we are all here to support you and help in any way we can. Have a look around the site - we have some long-running threads which you are welcome to join in with and there are also lots of new discussions every day. Just join in as and when you feel comfortable and give us a shout if you need a hand with anything or have any questions.
