Hi
I'm really struggling to process my cancer journey.
I had bilateral, invasive lobular in one breast and invasive ductal cancer in the other.
I was lucky to keep both breasts. I've just finished 4 sessions of chemo and have radiotherapy lined up for January.
it's all starting to hit me now and I'm feeling very low.
I've lost my hair and put weight on. I hate the way I look and feel.
whilst I do know that I'm 'lucky' and am trying to be positive, it's too hard to stay in this mindset.
through macmillan, I have some sessions lined up with a bupa therapist for this.
I don't know if this has been brought on by Xmas and the new year. I'm not able to view the new year with anything other than sadness.
Has anyone, or does anyone else feel like this?
Thanks for listening.
Hi emmak
Welcome to the forum, I’m Daisy53 one of the Community Champions on this forum. I’m sorry to hear that you were diagnosed with breast cancer in both breasts and that you are struggling at the moment. What you are feeling is perfectly natural and as you said it’s hard to stay positive sometimes during treatment. All of here on this forum have struggled from time to time so you are not alone anytime you come on here for a chat. The Christmas and New Year season can be particularly hard when you’re struggling.
It’s good that you have sessions lined up with a therapist to talk about how you are feeling. I had counselling when I was struggling and I found it a great help.
Wishing you the best of luck with your Radiotherapy in the New Year.
Best wishes
Daisy53
