Feeling cross with myself

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It’s nearly 2am and I am feeling cross with myself for probably doing too much yesterday. I had surgery on Friday and I’m a single mum of two. My mum, who is 78 and who cares for my dad gas been coming round each day to help but I hate seeing her have to help and as I have not felt pain, just tiredness, so I wanted more. My kids are teenagers but like most teenagers, not very helpful and would rather argue about how it’s the other one’s turn to help. I was proud of myself for getting a bath and gettng dressed, sorting breakfast and lunch for us all, running my son a bath and cleaning the kitchen but now had such a bad night and feel rotten I am really cross with myself. When realistically do you think you can do more? 

  • Morning, Trying2bestrong

    It’s so tempting to do too much when used to being a busy and active person, isn’t it?! I did the same. 4/5 days after lumpectomy and SLNB surgery I was all confident and sure I was fine and then overdid it. I felt a swelling move from my boob to under my armpit while washing my hair (sorry, gross!) and was then in a lot of discomfort for a day or two. Like you I was a bit fed up with myself for thinking I know best! Took it a little easier then for a few days and had to have a swelling drained (painless) and some antibiotics, but by about day 10 I would say I was fine and doing most things. After two weeks I was pretty much back to normal and working, driving, gentle jogging at the gym etc. I know recovery time is different for everyone, but hopefully this provides some reassurance.

    Don’t beat yourself up, you’ll get there. x 

  • Thank you so much Eebee, that does help and was lovely to hear back from you. X

  • Hi there, it's so easy to overdo it, you feel fine and then the next day is rough. I had a lumpectomy and would say I was ok by the end of week one and feeling normal by the end of the 2nd week.   Must be tough with typical teenagers so I hope you can turn a blind eye to the arguing for a few days and have some time to rest up a bit. Best wishes 

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  • It’s all been said perfectly  above but I’d add don’t be afraid to let the teenagers step up. They actually might appreciate the chance to help and be needed. I pretended to be super woman and it sort of meant no one coukd be honest about how they felt about it all. We all just walked around with our chins up. And then I hit the wall after treatment ended!!