I finished my Radiotherapy 3wks ago. Physically im feeling ok, just fatigue. But mentally im really struggling! Very emotional, mood up and down. I feel like now the treatments have ended im expected to jump back to it as if nothing has happened. Ive been to hell & back the last 7 months and dont think anyone around me relates to that at all. Im to take Anastrozole for 5yrs and now feel im left in limbo as to wether the Cancer will come back or not. I feel my life is now a lottery that I will never win :-(
Hi Leedslass64 , sorry you are feeling very emotional and in limbo re recurrence. I think this is a very common issue at your stage of treatment - the ‘active’ treatment is finished so to other people it looks like you’re ’through it all’ but of course you’ve still got to cope with the hormone treatment and the whole feeling of turmoil and uncertainty that comes with a cancer diagnosis. I really don’t think that most other people get it at all. There’s a very good paper by a Dr Peter Harvey called something like ‘When treatment finishes….’ which I’ve found helpful. I can’t post a link but you can Google it. I’ve also found it really helpful to be in regular contact with others who’ve had cancer. I do a weekly exercise class for ‘cancer rehabilitation’ which was initially for 12 weeks but I’m still going 3 years later! I’m also in touch with a couple of lovely women who attended my 6 week ear acupuncture sessions (for hot flushes from hormone treatments), nearly 5 yeats ago. And a close friend had very similar cancer to me a couple of years after me so again she’s great to talk to. Be kind to yourself - it’s early days and it’s a big adjustment, coming to terms with the diagnosis and getting used to whatever your new normal is. Love and hugs, HFxx
PS I’ve also found Future Dreams House in Kings Cross a great place to visit. I’ve attended a few sessions there as I’m not too far from London but they also do online stuff. It’s a charity specifically for those affected by breast cancer so includes friends and family. Xx
Thanks HappyFeet1, for your kind words and reply. And Wow! I have just read the artice you mentioned and it has helped me enormously! I have actually printed it out to let my husband read as an isight to how im feeling at this moment in time and how for me this journey is far from over.
Thanks again much appreciation for everyone in this forum xx
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