In essence this is a good news story if you click on my profile you can read it all. It’s been a whirlwind 8 months from going for my first mammogram to getting the all clear on the 5th of June. I am happy and all my friends and family are happy that I am clear of cancer. I have trouble with the fact that they think that’s it. Looking at me fully dressed I look the same (although a stone heavier - blooming Letrozole!) but my body is not the same and it’s not even the scars they do not bother me really. It’s the weight and feel of my reconstructed breast. I knew it wasn’t going to be the same but just wasn’t really prepared for this. The consultants and surgeons are delighted with how it looks. I am very symmetrical but not sure when I’ll be able to wear a proper bra again as I’m struggling to find one that’s supportive and comfortable. This is making me feel deflated. Sorry for the long post and I realise others are not in as positive position as myself but my family and friends don’t really understand. My husband tries but I can hear him sighing when I walk away. Just wanted to share to see if anyone felt the same at any point. Thanks.
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I had my reconstruction in October last year and it's only very recently that it feels softer - at some angles you can see the implant shape or occasionally wrinkling. I really underestimated how lg soft tissue injuries can take to heal. My breast was already swollen before my op thanks to the biopsies/fine needle aspiration during my recall appointment then lymph node removals. My surgeonould like to replace the implant and size the other breast down as quite frankly now they're an odd pair. The alternative was put an implant in the other side 
I'm on Tamoxifen which i only realised recently is for 2-3 years and then might be moved to Letrozole when my periods finally stop.
