Emotions

understand how you feel, sometimes best to just feel it and let it pass by. i find if i try to fight it it starts to feels insurmountable.

but sleep is needed, maybe try some natural remedies to help settle t night, sleepy teas or something. listen to audiobooks to keep the mind occupied and soothing to have someone read.

Totally understandable! I’ve said in a previous on-line thingy how horrible I was to my lovely husband! I avoided friends as no one understood what I was going through particularly with chemo. My husband woke me up when I was sleeping on the sofa during the day to tell me he was taking the dog out…World War 3 broke out, by me, for waking me up! He looked crushed and I hated myself for my over reaction. When you do have a calm moment, apologise and admit it’s the anxiety, anger, frustration and admittedly, fear, that forces you to fly! Listen to soothing music as you sleep….I really wish you well xxx

Hi 

it’s really tough isn’t it. 

I am finding the physical effects of the chemo and the emotional/mental side tough in equal measure. Days vary with some good and others bad and the upping and downing is exhausting. 

I find it helps to tell myself that I have a very challenging job for the next 6 months, which is to endure chemotherapy for the good it will do me in the long run. Every day that goes by is another ticked off. 

I use a variety of things to get me through the day - reading, tv, snoozing, needlework, doodling, listening to radio podcasts, messaging friends (although I don’t always feel like it). 

if you are struggling not to fly off the handle perhaps your emotions need an outlet - I talk out loud to myself when I’m having strong feelings as it takes some of the power from them if that makes sense. Keeping a diary or journalling could also help? 

sending support through the airwaves x

1. It is a rollercoaster like no other..try to be gentle and understanding with yourself. You're allowed to be emotional. I was diagnosed in June and had my op in August and thought I was managing - most of the time. But last week it was tears all the way and totally overwhelmed. I knew I needed more rest, especially as chemo starts tomorrow. If you're able to, I found getting out for a fresh air walk also helps get rid of the stress. And I had a good chat with a Macmillan advisor at my local hospital and I can't tell you how much better I felt afterwards. Big hugs to you.. you're not alone.

Hi I asked around if friends would like to become chem walkers.  I ended up with a core group who would call and off we would go.  It kept the social contact and also helped focus the day.

Both the Macmillan and Breast Cancer Care were a great source of support. I also had the Macmillan 1 to 1 telephone counselling.  The 6 sessions were very helpful.

All the best  

Sorry you are going through this, I can relate to your situation so much. 

Between hair and consequent self confidence loss, my emotions are all over the place too. Even the slightest thing makes me cry incontrollably.

My relationship with my partner is also quite complicated at the moment because we have completely lost any form of intimacy and he confrimed it's due to my diagnosis/treatment. He struggles with my body and said it feels weird. This is one of the things that makes me the most sad/hopeless but we agreed to work on it even though I don't know where to start.

Also, the fact that I am an overthinker does not help at all. Sometimes I find myself spyraling into a dark place where all the possible negative thoughts come to surface and weigh me down.

I swing between panick attacks and days when I pretend everything is fine however that dark place is always there waiting for me to fall back into it.

It's stressfull and hard to live with it but I sometimes think that this will pass and I will, one day, be in a better place.

Stay strong, fellow warrior. We are in this together and together we will come out of it <3

Hugs, I know how you feel.  I haven't been intimate with my partner since just before my diagnosis because he's scared of hurting me.  I can accept that, but I am concerned about how my changed body will impact him.  At the same time, I can't worry about it too much as I need this done.  As he keeps saying, it's going to save my life.