I had a lumpectomy and lymph node removal in February this year following diagnosis of ER+ in January. Finished 5 x sessions of radiotherapy in May and now on Tamoxifen which has been problematic due to side effects but I think I've found the right brand now.
Since last Thursday I've been having some pain in my breast in the same place where the cancer was and under my arm and I'm so frightened that they didn't remove everything and its come back. I never realised that once I'd been given the all clear that it doesn't end there and just how worried I'd feel about it coming back. Before diagnosis I never found any lumps or anything, it was found by routine mammogram which makes it worse in a way because I'm imagining it could be there again and I might never know.
My daughter gets married on Saturday and I don't want to speak to her or my husband about this because I feel I've already put them through enough and I don't want them worrying before her special day. I've told myself I'll contact the BCN as soon as the wedding is over and she's gone on honeymoon but I'm just so frightened and struggling to hold it together right now.
Hi Cazza8008
As Flossy says, try not to worry. It is very true that the fear of recurrence can be nearly as debilitating as having been diagnosed in the first place! Try and think of it this way, you had the cancer removed, the radiotherapy is an extra protection and because of being ER+ you have an even further level of protection.
I was 100% convinced on my first annual that it would be back - I was extremely shocked when it wasn't. I am now 5 years down the line and after this month, no more ER+ tablets. Glad you have found the right brand for your tablets now 
It is entirely possible that you have done something 'extra' like lifting something slightly heavy and not realised it, to cause the pain that you feel. On my last meeting with my BCN, I mentioned that I was still getting pains and she said it really isn't unusual to get pains over a year after the operation and it did surprise me that unlike a broken limb, a breast operation can take well over a year before you are free of the pain. It was definitely well over a year before I realised that I could lift my shopping bags without feeling the effects of it a day or so later.
Enjoy your daughter's wedding and put it out of your head. It is highly likely just a simple reason of 'over doing it' - especially as you have probably been concentrating on wedding preparations and not thinking about it so much at the moment. If you can't put it out of your head, you might want to give your BCN a ring before the wedding and you will probably get the reassurance you need before the big day!
Kindest Wishes,
Lesley
