Acute anxiety over cancer metastasis

I'm still waiting to be seen and my anxiety is the same I cant focus on anything my body feels light its churning over over  restless cant concentrate very well  and that awful feeling of dread and being so scared I can't really relate to how ur feeling.

Hi Casput

I'm sorry you're feeling anxious and stressed.  I'm not sure from your post whether you have mets or are have anxiety about developing them. I can relate to worry about mets as at the moment, I am waiting to hear further investigation into abnormalty showing up on the bone scan. I am worried that I may have bone mets. I have been waiting since last Wednesday to hear back after abnormality found. At times over the last few days it has felt unbearable. Added to that it is now almost 6 weeks since diagnosis. 

I have been trying to keep doing positive things mentally and physically and I am trying to think that I don't want to spend  the rest of my life with this worrying so want to enjoy myself as much as I can. It is not easy though and I have phoned the macmillian helpline twice since last Wednesday when it felt too much and was crying when talking about it. Both times the person at the other end was lovely. Would you benefit from talking to them? There is also counselling offered by macmillian. I declined the offer as I hope if I get through this waiting I may not need it. 

It is really horrible worrying and feels like mental torture doesn't it.

Wishing you strength and hugs

Stripey x 

It is so normal, even without scan changes, to feel like every ache/ pain/ twinge/ new symptom must be metastases. For me, around diagnosis with all that waiting for results was a challenge. Now I have finished chemo and radiotherapy and I am on tamoxifen, the question mark over whether we have done enough to stop it in its tracks is on my mind. I have used the macmillan support line on a few occasions just to voice my fears and concerns and just saying it really helped me. My BCN has referred me for counselling and that is helping me now. I also try to get outside into the countryside or by the sea to walk every day. I find just being outside helps me keep my emotions more even and also being in company helps too. It is hard for us to get our heads around cancer and its a rollercoaster ride emotionally. There is a lot of support there for us when we need it. Thinking of you x