So recently a colleague mentioned that bananas are ever so slightly radioactive, and I went down a rabbit hole of finding out exactly how radioactive and how that compares with e.g. cancer treatment.
Turns out I'm not the first to have thought of this.
tl:dr; keep eating bananas it's fine
There are some mildly scientific posts / articles out there about "BED" = banana equivalent dose, where you can compare the radiation dosage you would get from eating one banana to e.g. one dose of radiotherapy.
Spoiler: not confirmed science but one radiotherapy probably equals eating millions of bananas.
When I found this out I thought it was kind of funny, because bananas are of course fine to eat and radiotherapy is a very effective and relatively safe treatment, given what it involves.
But, in recent days it's all hit home a bit too much. I read Deborah James' post (bowelbabe), watched her videos this week, and it's heartbreaking. And there are so many others along this journey who I've had contact with, who have had to deal with so much - too much, really - and somehow the wheels just keep turning and the sun keeps coming up every day.
I dunno. The bananas were a nice distraction for me. But I'm feeling a lot of sadness right now. Physically I'm doing well after my treatment, but I feel so much for myself, for all the others going through similar treatments. Is this grief? Just another stage along the path I suppose.
totally get that.
don’t know how to feel.
Each day is a mine field 
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I think I need to read that article.
I can relate so much to that feeling of not knowing how to feel. I've also finished treatment (mastectomy, lumpectomy, and radiotherapy) and am now on Letorzole for ten years. I feel like I've moved through this journey that's been driven by others (albeit I did have input to some of the decisions). Everyone says I've dealt with it really well. I don't know if I've dealt with it at all yet! I was trying to describe how I felt to a friend (she had her own cancer journey about six years ago). Every so often I feel that something (emotion) is bubbling up, but it doesn't come to anything. It's almost like the shock is trying to put in an appearance what will soon be a year since diagnosis. I likened it to a long-dormant volcano which has started rumbling occasionally - I guess I'm just getting on with things and waiting to see if the massive eruption occurs.
And I'm glad to hear that bananas are safe. I also eat one every day 
Take care everyone.
Diane.
