Why do I keep crying?

I think you need to really let it out and stop trying to control it.  Maybe write down your fears then write down your hopes.  Your body & mind are tired.  You can't just forget you've been dish with cancer but you will get through it.  We are always here to listen.  We under.  There's a chemo thread you might f8 d helpful. 

Chemo thread

Hello Endurance, sorry to hear that you're having such a tough time and have had to leave your your friends and family behind whilst having treatment.  You're going through a lot and as already posted, this forum is here if you need someone to talk to about how you're feeling, plus you can call the Macmillan hotline number and speak to the  nurses (I think they're off until Weds). Have you spoken to your breast care nurse or a GP about your low mood? As you mention that your crying is now impacting on you and your husband's day to day life you may well be suffering from mild depression or anxiety and might benefit from some help such as therapy or medication. Sometimes just talking about how you are feeling with someone who understands helps x

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Its rubbiah to feel like that - I believe it is often grief that we feel , for our past life and knowing things will never be the same again , but also not sure how it will all work out. Everyone being lovely and kind just seemed to reinforce those feelings for me, and we know that the people who love and care for us are concerned , and knowing we have “caused” that concern , and that we can do very little about it can also be really hard to deal with, so there’s so many emotions running around - you may not be depressed , but it may be worth calling the Macmillan line or Breastcancernow and speaking to someone , sometimes strangers are the best people to help us sort our feelings out.

Mindfulness apps helped me at times , and I’ve never been one for that type of thing , but it can have a very calming effect.

I hope you can start to feel less emotional , and can feel more in control.

Jo xx

Hi Endurance sorry to hear you are feeling so tearful. I was the same. I journaled throughout my surgery and treatment, I had a page for goals and aspirations and the top one was to go 24 hours without crying! 
I got there in the end but crying was part of my daily life for some time.

Good luck for everything you will get there.

Dear Amelie, I really like your advice to set Goals and Aspirations. I am currently waiting to see a new consultant, having decided to change breast surgeons, so am very anxious and seem to switch from angry to tearful very easily, especially at night when I can't sleep. Your advice to Endurance inspired me. Thank you.