Traumatised

I can’t believe Im back on this group seeking solace. Have had a year from hell…22nd December had lumpectomy for dcis followed by radiotherapy, then 4 months later I felt a lump again in basically the same place. My team told me more dcis and reccommended mastectomy which I had in August. Today I visited breast nurses as I had felt a lump again just above my scar. They got me an app tonight with consultant. They gave me ultrasound and did a needle biopsy and pathology confirmed abnormal cells again. I don’t have enough tissue to do the other needle test so they are trying to book me in on Wednesday for surgery for my surgeon to remove the lump and surrounding tissue. I honestly believed once I had my mastectomy I was fine. They told me I was! It’s a 6 mm lump or something thankfully smaller than last one. I literally can’t take this information in. Thankfully I started antidepressants just after my mastectomy so they are definitely helping me to cope. Has anyone heard of this. My team are gobsmacked. This doesn’t usually happen apparantly which of course frightens me! I needed to write this down. I am in total shock and once again thrown into the rollercoaster of dealing with this news.