Feel so alone ...no one really understands how it feels

Hi Nan...

Firstly big huggss you should be proud you've come this far on this journey. I feel lonely when I am in the shower looking at myself. We live in fear most days. Have you spoken and raised the joint and back pains witn your Onco? Don't be shy to get in touch with the team, you mustn't suffer like this. To be honest no one can answer your question. For me even now I don't feel myself and confidence tremendously knocked. But you know what...don't fight trying to find you...you have become a stronger version of you coming out the other side. You are so amazing to have done surgery, chemo and taking the meds.

Please don't feel alone. I know it's hard to find any joy. I feel the same way too. But I try to put music, talk to people and keep active when possible  listen to audio books or podcasts. 

C x

So sorry you feel like this. This disease seems to rob you of your ‘self’. Big hugs x