Feeling Isolated! Beginning to realise life changes with Cancer!

I also live alone and am a generally active, positive person. I've just moved to a rural vilage which was meant to offer me freedom from the masses, but already I feel sucked into a void and I've not had the surgery yet. 

I don't think you need to apologise for your feelings. They are honest, real and invariably will be shared to some extent by someone here, which might offer a little solidarity in expressing ourselves at the very least.

I feel exactly the same Fleurete . I'm waiting for my surgery  (WLE with sentinel node) on 7th and, although life has gone on and I'm still working I'm frustrated by the uncertainty beyond surgery. 

I hope I have the outcome you do from my surgery  but even then will have likely radiotherapy I am told which means another block of time off work. And then of course there is the ongoing drug therapy

Like you I'm usually a positive optimistic person but right now I feel resentful and hacked off about how my life has been turned upside down and feel like I can't be bothered with Christmas.

I know I should feel grateful for the treatment and I am but I think these feelings are normal and you shouldn't give yourself a hard time about feeling what you feel. It has turned your life upside down but life will settle down again and we will come out the other side

Much love xx

Hi everyone.  I what a mastectomy  in June and axillary  node clearance in August    my Oncotype  test came up low so no chemo (I'm the lucky one).  My chest is hard and there's still a bit of swelling under the arm but after 6 months of having my life taken over by this I am now fine.  I've taken on a 2 year old rescue puppy to keep me positive and get me off the sofa!  Life will get better, I promise you  xxx

Ps  I live alone, too.

Oh Fleurete - don’t apologise for post. It’s not self indulgent at all. It’s completely understandable.  Getting a diagnosis just turns your world upside down. I also felt so trapped and the worst thing was not feeling like I could plan anything. It’s hard when people want you to as well and you try to stay positive but some days its just hard. Hold on and be kind to yourself. hopefully you will have more good days than bad going through this. I think it’s hard as like you said some days you feel positive and then for no reason you can feel So low about it all. Sending lots of love Xx

hi I'm waiting too, haven't got the date yet.. pre op appt tomorrow. my head is just busting with questions and emotions and worrying about my husband yes I'm lucky to have him ..worrying about me...,I'm not used to all the jargon on here all I know is 2cm tumour and lymph nodes affected. so much to learn.  had visits from friends but obv it won't be every day. I feel very alone sometimes too. hang on in!

Hiya

Think better days to come. This is how I will approach chemo. 

I know how u feel with emotions of all sorts. I think it hits people most who are active, want to do things and plan ahead plus someone who on the whole is pretty stable emotionally before diagnosis. I find my low confidence, being teary and mood swings hardest to deal with.

The days can chop and change and this really throws me off balance as mostly in the past I am happy go lucky person most upbeat nature, now shielding and fearing the worse at each phase of treatment/op and having to dig deep to find joy in life - such contrast!!

Don't beat yourself up as it's normal to be feeling alone....we do too and such mportant source this forum is for us to just chill be with each other virtually and provide some comfort, whinge moan at what is thrown at us. 

So...please don't feel guilty about where you're at...don't feel alone. We are here fighting our best fight!! Better days will come...I keep telling myself this too...and like you I also love travelling and so I look forward to this treat afterwards!!!

C x