I’m up again in the night so may be losing perspective. My pain seems to be getting worse - right mastectomy with lymph biopsy two weeks on. Gone back on to codeine etc and Drain due to come out tomorrow. But it’s the “cleavage end” of the scar that gets these really shooting sharp pains when I move - feels like it’s ripping. So I end up in situations at night where I slide down the pillows at a bad angle and can’t get myself back up because I can’t push on right arm but when I use left it makes this shooting pain. I’ve been caught stuck on the loo for ages, and several times unable to get out of bed.
tonight went up after everyone else and have just been crying on the side of the bed for two hours. Eventually got myself down to the sofa. I just can’t lie down or swing my feet up as the pain feels too sharp and also feels like it’s doing damage.
I do know the answer is to call the BC nurses tomorrow which I’ll do. But I thought putting it in here might get it out. I need to take back over sorting things out at home - my sister has been incredible but I can’t let her stay a fourth week. But I feel frightened when this happens.
The aching pain is fine that’s just pain. It’s the one that feels like I can’t move that makes me feel so helpless
