Well I felt empowered this afternoon by all the women I've chatted to on here. Enough is enough! I cried and hopped in the shower to have a hairwash and mentally scrub away my scars. I even SAT in the shower 
and shaved my legs 
I can't feel my left armpit so refuse to see how hairy it is!
I lathered myself in fake tan, dried and styled my hair. I bought an YSL lipstick 
in a bright red when I first found out I had cancer as I knew one day it would give me confidence, today it came out!
I drove (yep) for five minutes to the shops and decided I was going to buy a few track suits, well loungewear sort of thing. Found a nice one in oatmeal, bought it and came home.
My lovely neighbour came over to see how I'd got on driving ( I was actually fine by the way) and whilst drinking her tea 
looked at me intently. "What's up Karen?" was met with a "have you looked in the mirror Amanda?"
I was bright orange 
(6 hours later I still am) and the 
lipstick on my teeth looked like I was hemorrhaging.
Empowerment...bring it on, I don't give a monkeys!! Well OK, I may not revisit that shop for a while, I may be brave but I'm not daft!!! Don't forget dear readers my Mojo has been in lost property for 11 months so I'm trying my best - perhaps pale and interesting for my next jaunt...
Hi it's great to hear that you are feeling better and getting your mojo back. Orange is a good colour to be at the moment with Halloween round the corner 
Isn't it wonderful that we can (despite the dark miserable side of this) decide to reinvent ourselves Jayne? I hope we can emerge from cancer brighter, hopefully 
feeling well and alot fitter and stronger mentally. I see my oncologist Tuesday for probable meds and radiotherapy update and I've booked a hair appointment for afterwards, yep it might be thin and not as glorious as a wig, but I'm trying!! I'm even toying with the idea of microblading eyebrows on eventually!
Well today I'm going to scrub my orange face and smile at the world 
please join me?!!
