I was diagnosed with breast cancer five weeks ago.
I have been told that it is a rare form and aggressive. My initial results didn’t make the MDT in time for the ‘Friday’ meeting. When they did make the meeting, it was determined to be a small cell cancer not normally found in the breast. So I was told that I possibly had a tumour somewhere else. This meant full body bone scan and full body CT scan. Nothing was found, so although rare it was determined that it was indeed a ‘primary’ tumour.
All of this has taken time and now I have been booked in to have a lumpectomy in two weeks 30th September.
May problem is that while I am waiting the initial lump is getting bigger and bigger !
I mentioned this to the surgeon only yesterday as I signed the consent form form surgery. He seemed unfazed.
But, tonight I really feel that it has doubled in size in only a couple of weeks and that it now still has two more weeks to ‘grow’ !
I am becoming terrified that it is growing and possibly spreading as I am waiting !
I don’t know what to do !!
Hi Nanaroo I’m waiting for lumpectomy like you but I see that as a good sign as think it’s not too big to deal with even though like you I can tell mine has grown too (do try and check mainly with arm up as it then seems smaller)! 
I told my bcn who said it won’t have grown that much. Mine was measured at 14mm (grade 3) but I’d say getting near 18mm now possibly bigger and has changed from a smooth lump to an irregular shape. Have my lumpectomy on 24th which can’t come soon enough now as I’m so bad with the waiting. I asked my doctor if anything would change during the wait ie spread to lymph nodes and they said no so I have to try and hang on to that. Hope this helps you.
Have you spoken to your breast care nurses about your fears as they may be able to put your mind at rest?
