So I found out I had ductal breast cancer at the end of July, the cancer is 7.4cm with DCIS. I've just been plodding on with this news with no emotion or tears, just been kind of OK with this information. Now today I've have 3 phone calls from the hospital, Monday blood tests and ECG, Tuesday MRI and meet and greet with the chemo staff, then Zoladex jab, Wed I have to get my picc line fitted ready for chemo on 20th and all of a sudden I'm just like OMG I actually have cancer., it's all feeling so real now and I'm not going get that call saying it's all a mistake and I'm OK, I'm really scared of the unknown.
I don't know how this chemo is going to effect me but by the sounds of it the next 12 months are going to be horrible
I was exactly the same as you when I was diagnosed with bi-lateral breast cancer in April. I was completely numb at first and then it hit me like a tonne of bricks. I had a complete melt down for a couple of hours and came out the other side determined that it wasn’t going to change my life too much.. I was doing ok and coping well with the chemo and hormone therapy. The side affects are a bit crap but the oncologists are great at helping reduce what you have to go through and of course a glass or bottle of wine sometimes helps too. there will be days when you feel like hell on earth and there will be days when you feel like your old self again. Just remember, your not alone. I’m just starting my 4th month of chemo and hormone therapy. So if you need someone to talk to, I’m here. Best of luck. X
Thank you for coming back to me Frenchie, I'm so sorry to hear about your diagnosis, hopefully yourcomingto an end of your chemo, I need 7 lots of it I also need the herceptin as well and forced in to early menopause
It's so weird, I just think I've been thinking this whole time it can't be me and after today reality really has hit me.
So do you have a picc line? and how was that when you had it fitted and how is it living with it because I'm scared I'll pull it out. also do you feel rough when you are actually having chemo or is it afterwards?
Sorry for all the questions x
My treatment s a bit different to yours. I refused the pic line. I didn’t want my life being ruled by constant trips to the hospital. I have a chemo tablet and hormone tablet every day for 3 weeks then I have a break from the chemo one for a week but still continue with the hormone tablets. Then it’s starts all over again the following month . I have loads of drugs that help me deal with the side affects of both the tablets. But I have only recently started taking these. I’m one of these women who is stubborn and think they can do it all on their own, I don’t want to bother my family and of course I know how busy and exhausted all the medical staff are, so I don’t really want to bother them either. But to be honest, I know now that you really do need their help and the help of others like everyone on this group, as no one can really understand what your going through unless they have done it or going through it themselves. I was told yesterday that it is now in my bones, so there is no hope for me, my treatment will now continue until it is no longer affective, but that is not going to stop me from living my life and carrying on as normal. Did I cry like a baby yesterday….. yes I did, but I’m over it now and starting a new day. Your sickness will probably be worse after your chemo. I take my tablet at night and as soon as I’m awake in the morning I’m rushing to the toilet. I not sick anymore, the diarrhoea is the worst.(theres meds to help with this). I just have the nausea, (stomach like a spin dryer) feeling for several hours in the morning,(theres meds to help with this too) but that gradually fades off.
It must be a bit nerve racking having a pic line, I can only imagine what it is like. always worried that you are going to catch it whilst bathing or putting your clothes on. The risk of infection etc. I’m sure it will become as much a part of you as the rest of your body and although you will always be aware of it, you won’t be as worried about it as time goes on.
Im always here if you need to chat or have any questions. I will always endeavour to answer them as best I can.
p.s there are a couple of books by Deborah James (fellow cancer sufferer) that you might like to read. I have the F**k you cancer one and it has made me cry with sadness and cry with laughter. When your feeling rubbish and don’t feel like doing anything there is nothing like a good book to take your mind off it all for a while. Good luck with your treatment and keep your chin up. X
Wow, I'm so sorry to hear that you're cancer has moved to you're bones, what an ordeal you've/going through. Bless you're heart, but I love you're positively x
The sickness and diarrhoea sounds awful, not looking forward to any of it and I'm having 21 weeks of chemo so 7 sessions ugh
Thank you for the advice I'm feeling OK about it today but I know when the appointments get closer I'll start getting nervous again,
I'll have a look at the books, I do love a good read and thank you, I'm also here if you need to talk.
You take care. Sending hugs your way x
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