On the whole I try to remain positive and not dwell on things I have no control over. Today is not one of those days. There were only ever 3 things I actually liked about me,visually. My lovely hair, my nails and my boobs. I have breast cancer and will be losing one boob, due to docitaxel my nails are lifting and weeping and I lost my hair shortly after I started chemo, which, if I'm honest, has bothered me more than I would openly admit to. I know this is all for the greater good, I'm also aware that there are people going through the same or worse than myself, but today I'm finding it difficult to see the positive.
Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day x
Sorry to hear you're having a rough day. Getting cancer stinks, and all the chemo that does us good, also stinks in a way too. I hope you have a better day tomorrow! Sending positive thoughts x
Hi Lilylu, sorry to hear you are fed up, don't be too hard on yourself, you're going through a lot. It's impossible to feel positive all the time, My emotions are all over the place and don't reflect how I expect to feel on a given day. Like you I try to accept what I can't change but at the same time I feel like I'm grieving a loss. A loss of what life was like before cancer, surgery and treatments. I was putting on brave face initially but now I seem to be crying at drop of a hat, but think it's normal and all has to come out.
Hope you have a better day tomorrow x
Thank you Irishgirl16 for your message and positive thoughts x
Thank you Smileyscar for your message. I can completely relate to the emotional rollercoaster you are experiencing. I am just the same, so much to cope with, to worry about and to try and carry on with. I will try not to beat myself up when I'm having a bad day. I hope you are being kind to yourself too x
Hi there. I can relate to your post too, as I had my op in August 2019 and it was found to be worse than at first thought, so I had chemo next and finished that one and a half years ago, yet I still feel exhausted and often emotional too. It didn’t help when going through the chemo, my hubby collapsed and went into hospital for four months, also with cancer. He was diagnosed terminal, whereas I’ve got rid of my breast cancer, second time round. I had one mastectomy and immediate reconstruction. It does get better over time, but we have to be kind to ourselves and just treat each day individually, are the most of that day as none of us are promised any more than that. Take heart, you will get better days. We used to travel on expeditions before cancer and covid, we miss it dreadfully, but are glad to still be alive. When feeling down, treat yourself and just relax with TV or a good book, don’t struggle to do anything you can’t manage. Good luck.
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