Hi everyone, on 1st June I woke up and felt a lump in my left breast, was about 3 fingers wide and narrow felt like a toggle button, thought it would just be a blocked vein. Now I know I should have realised it was Ductal Carcinoma, and mine turns out to be invasive. It was measured at 1.5 cm at initial exam and 2 cm by diagnosis 4 weeks later. Its been labelled Grade 2. I know it will respond to hormone treatment but havent gotten the correct terminology for the hormone bit set in my head yet. However tomorrow I go for my lumpectomy and lymph node biopsy so will ask. I’ve been strong up to now, done breast exams, mammograms, biopsy and now a radiation injection. The amount of people who have looked at and touched my breast recently - well I have already lost count. So tomorrow as I say is op day, I will have to go in on my own because of covid so have no one to chat to whilst I am waiting around, to run and ask the silly questions or be my second ears, or to be honest make sure I go to the right place to start with ( I can leave a department store by a different exit without getting lost) so I am nervous about ensuring I am doing the right thing, in the right place, asking the right thing at the right time. Then and heres the really silly thing I know but there is the whole hospital gowns, bareing breast on the op table for the whole team to see and to make it worse I started my period today so now I have to worry about are you allowed to wear underwear, do they need to provide it or can you wear your own and I am going to have to ask a nurse to tell me that. It mortifies me. Crazy I know and I have been through 3 successful pregnancies, a still birth and 2 assisted miscarrages. Cancer isnt scaring me as I have just pointed out I have been through worse but the being exposed and vulnerable like this has never sat well with me and its not stopping here theres then the possible chemo and definite radiation to do.
Its the not knowing combined with extra precautions post covid and although I've had a few trips in, I still get very anxious and nervous. They had to give me a sedative prior to anaesthetic but the nurses and anaesthetist stayed with me till i was asleep and were very calming. Hindsight is wonderful but I'm sure I would still be the same. Let's us know in due course how it goes. I'm sure you will be fine.
Keep going... take one day at a time x
There is really nothing to worry about at all. I hadn't had an operation since the age of 4 (tonsils out, but still remember it). The Nurses will take absolute care of you. I was worried secretly about everything beforehand, from dying on the operating table, not waking up - the whole shebang and there was absolutely no need to have worried. I was first on the operating list, couldn't get my compression stockings on, asked for help and got it. They were all so busy doing things that there was no time available to talk to any other patients. The after effects of GA just made everyone who had an op sleep. I found I was always treated with the utmost dignity by everyone. I think you will find that things just get done very quickly - that's what happened to me. It's a messy business anyway. I woke up from the op to hear someone say they were just wiping the blood off my back, so I wouldn't worry about a period being a problem. Just tell the Nurses - they are used to it all and will want to help you. They will help you dress the way they want you to be for the op and will tell you when to undress, will check, and when to dress again. I wore my pants. I never even noticed the gown on the bottom of the bed until told - I was so nervous. No patients spoke really to each other as too busy answering the questions from the Anaesthetist and the Surgeon, getting marked up in purple pen etc. It's a pain to go through but just think that its the route you need to take to get the cancer gone. Just do as the Nurses and Doctors say who deal with ops day in and day out so successfully. I lay there on the operating table thinking the anaesthetic wasn't even working.......determined to say something as I thought it was a bit too quiet in there, but it must have kicked in when the Surgeon more or less told me, in a very pleasant way to shut up and go to "my happy place". My brain was busy trying to think of somewhere, again slightly annoyed that the anaesthetic didn't seem to be working (but it was really !). I'm still intrigued as to what actually went on during the operation but will never know.......so absolutely no point in worrying about it. You will be fine.
I am sorry you were that scared but how great of the nurse to recognise this and support you.
Thanks for sharing your experience with me.
Ok so a quick update for you all after your kindness last night. I got through it, asked Mike the lovely male nurse what to do re my period and he was very kind and found out - paper knickers own pads so only had to worry about getting it placed right. So a lot of waiting around in the morning resulting in going for wire later than planned, the anaesthetic injection for that hurt but otherwise ok, but because of the waiting around once it was done they wanted to get ion with it so felt a bit rushed getting changed and had to deal with the whole sanitary towel nonsense so long story short (I know) hop onto operating table and nurse asks me could I please take my bra off. Only forgotton hadnt I :)
I was told that too!!! I didn't know if my M&S cotton knickers were 100% so opted for their paper ones! Not sure why they need to be 100% cotton.
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