I can't breathe. My anxiety has hit the roof. I feel alone. I can't cope. I am married with 2 teens.
Been here before with the breast cancer and Cin3 cervical. Now , I'm confused.
After years of severe abdominal pains and passed on as hernias to gastric reflux I have compression of the coeliac axis. Await for surgeons referral. The biggy is .... ct scan showed two bilateral retroperitoneal soft tissue nodules at 5mm behind my stomach opp my left kidney. I'm.now being referred to Breast MDT. To be investigated as history of breast cancer . How? When I had double mastectomy and reconstruction of both breasts? I think it's something else but all Google gives you negative answers . I'm lost and feel so alone. It doesn't help with being CEV vulnerable of lung issues and covid presence and moving location has left me with no friends to talk to talk and my job as self employed to a question of returning back to work. I couldn't cope with covid and lock down and now this! I'm feeling so sorry for my self and I'm sorry for long post. I just can't breathe anymore. I'm struggling
Thank you to be so kind. I actually felt better uploading this. Thank you for your positive comments. 
