So scared csnt eat

Hi Poodie42 welcome to the forum.

My first response to your post is whoa!!!!!  Who said anything about dying?

It is scarey what's happened for you and no amount of reassurance  is likely to make this waiting time any better for you. You have seen what could be many things and as you already have had cysts in the past there is nothing to suggest that this may be the same again and your GP has done exactly the right thing in referring you as this is where the expertise that you need is situated at the Breast Clinic.

Many people who do go on to have a diagnosis of Breast Cancer, like myself, can and do make a full recovery and go on to lead normal lives. If this turns out to be anything more than a cyst then you will have treatment and have no reason to expect that you will not make a full recovery.

Its ok to feel scared you wouldn't be human if you didnt but what I would say is hold that thought and until you know what this is then we will be here for you to support, celebrate and generally listen as you need us to do this.

Big deep breaths and try to take each day as it comes and get through each day until you get an appointment through which is usually not very long.   

Meantime Im sending some huge big hugs your way for now.xx

Thank you. X

People keep telling me to keep busy but all I want to do is lie on the bed and play games on my tablet.   Does anyone else react like this, I am totally beside myself with worry I am way down the worst scenario already. 

Hi

yes it is a good idea to keep busy but if you want to play games on your tablet to keep your mind off things then go for it. We all cope differently with our diagnosis. Please dont jump to the worst scenario until you have a diagnosis. It may not be as bad as you think.  Waiting it the most difficult time particularly for results. Just take every day as it comes and wait and see what happens at your appointment.

Good luck

Linda xx

Thank you.   I have already made myself physically sick but I  know it has to be looked at, due to Covid I have to go to the clinic alone and that's freaking me out too

Hi Poodie24,

I am a similar age to you and am looking forward to a much longer life now ,than I would have been without my recent treatments(see my profile. As others have said the waiting is the worst time and when you get to hear from your Consultant what the problem is this site is here to help you through it and explain things . This group is here to help and support and even at times enjoy a giggle together.We have all been where you are now and amazed ourselves by getting through it, whatever it is ! Sending you big hugs in the meantime and take a look at some of the other threads on here especially the Awake thread-it's there day and night! Much love xxx

I gave been looking at the various tests they will do if cancer is found, CT scans etc.  Surely all that will take much time during which time the cancer goes on growing.   If they find cancer I will want an immediate mastectomy I know.

Hi

I think you've had some really good advice on this thread, but the most important piece of advice is stay calm.  Easier said than done, but try not to get ahead of yourself.  It might not even be cancer yet.  I was 51 when diagnosed (now 54) and even though I had 8cm chopped out of my breast their first priority is to save the breast and not carry out any unnecessary surgery.  Despite having such a large are with cancerous and pre-cancerous cells, I was still only stage one.  I didn't even need chemotherapy.  I had the lumpectomy (wide local excision - WLE), radiotherapy and tablets for 5 years.  It really might not be that bad - (a) not cancer (b) if it is you could expect, like me to die of other natural causes, rather than the cancer!  I know the first thing you think of when diagnosed with cancer, is "I'm going to die", but I can assure you that really isn't the case any more. There have been SO many advances with breast cancer and many, many of us have had BC and are just getting on with our lives as normal, with just a scar on our breast.

To have a mastectomy is quite a large operation in comparison to WLE.  I had my WLE operation at 4.30pm and was home by 7.30pm.  I had the operation on the Wednesday and was back at work on the Friday! and driving my car on the Monday. I worked all through my radiotherapy and didn't feel ill once.  I know I was very lucky how I was throughout this time, but without chemo. it wasn't that debilitating.

It's likely that they will have a feel of your breast, do mammogram, ultrasound scans and if they find something that they want to investigate more, biopsies.  They may do a CT (I didn't have one until my radiotherapy was due to start as that's part of this process).

But, above all it's important at this stage for you to stop thinking the worst. I know we all do, but it really may well be perfectly alright and all the worry and stress you are enduring will be for nothing.

Kindest wishes,

Thank you.  I am driving OH round the bend too. 

X

I have appointment next Wednesday 22nd July at 2.30, worried doesn't even begin to describe it, am absolutely frantic, just don't know what to do with myself. The