Hi
Firstly, I just wanted to say that what you are feeling is pretty much normal as it is a huge thing to be diagnosed with cancer and as time passes you will find that these feelings will fade. Never disappear, but they fade. I thought about 'having cancer' every day for well over a year, but now 2.5 years later, I can sometimes forget and it doesn't impact every minute of every day like it used to do.
From my experience counselling isn't 'offered' - it wasn't brought up in conversation by my BC nurse anyway (but then she was pretty hopeless from the get-go for me). I think if you speak to your BC nurse and ask if there are any offers of counselling she will more than likely know where you can go for some support.
I can remember at radiotherapy, I received a leaflet offering a radiotherapy group chat (but as the hospital was different from my local one - 30 miles away, I didn't go). I did go to the hospital's post treatment meeting which was really good and there were loads and loads of leaflets of where local and national support was available. It would have been nice to have it sooner, but the Macmillan leaflets were always available where ever I went for an appointment.
There's Maggie's Centres which you could have a look at and see if any are local to you. You could also try ringing the helpline below and see if they can offer some advice.
Hope this helps and just try and take each day as it comes.
Kindest wishes,
