AWAKE.........

Dearest LondonLass, just popping in quickly as am dashing soon to pick up from airport. You are a wonderful friend, don’t let anyone (even yourself) say otherwise. You have plenty of your own demons to deal with but always find time for others’ struggles. 
Grogg sorry you’re feeling so grim, it’s a really nasty virus that has a lot of horrid tricks up it’s sleeve so please take care and let others look after you. 
Sending hugs to you both. HFxxxx

Thanks HappyFeet1 and Grogg, I’m not sure I explained things very well, apologies for that. My friend is a very very good friend! I’m just not able to be there for her as much as I would like to be… because she doesn’t want me to be! She’s protecting me but in doing so I can’t help but feel I’m not doing enough! Life is just complicated sometimes! 

Grogg I hope you managed to get some sleep last night! Covid sounds really rough! I’ve spoken to a couple of people who have had it recently and they all said it was awful  We still where masks when in shops etc (not that we go in shops that often) also still hand sanitise constantly! Might sound completely over the top but I worry about mum or dad catching it! Dad as a smoker has a bad chest anyway, so can do without Covid. Really hope you turn the corner soon and start to feel better. Take care Hun, sleep when you can whether it’s day or night xxx

Wishing all the Fruit Loops a very Happy Wednesday. Hope it’s a good day for you all. Xxxx

LondonLass your friend knows you are there for her if she needs you. You can't do any more than that. If she has decided she doesn't want you too close to her at the moment, even if it is to protect you, then you just have to accept and respect that. It must be extremely hard for you as youvwant to be thee for her and you think she has made the wrong decision just to protect you when she coukd really do with you being close to support her. Perhaps you could write down for her how you feel and that although you espect her decision because she is doing it to protect you, you don't want to be protected from this and woukd rather go through it with her. You want the memories of her to include the bad times not just the good and you ask that she allows you that. But if she still says no, then that must be how she wants your memories of her to be.

Not sure if the above makes sense or if I am being of any help. Please feel free to disregard it and tell me I am not helping.  But we are here from you whenever you need us even if that is only occasionally. You have been here for me and I am very grateful x

I'm hoping I've turned a corner .  I've just showered and washed hair. Not done either since Sunday as didn't  feel up to standing in shower .  

Grogg hope you’re feeling a lot better, I was poorly with Covid too, it’s really horrible x

LondonLass so sad when friends ‘protect us’ I’ve experienced similar and in the end told them that I want to be there for my friends and keeping me out of supporting them when they have issues doesn’t help me, or them! Really hard.

Love to everyone else, think of you all often, ‘real’ life is so full on and exhausting but it’s so far so good x

Just popped on to check up on fairy sleepy dust supply (loads here!) and say night night Fruit Loops, I promise pics when I get home on Friday.

hugs xxx

Hope you are having a lovely time moomy.

Sleep well all you lovely Fruit Loops xx

Sky a bit dramatic on the way over the top of Pennines today