AWAKE.........

Well as I still appear to be awake, I may as well be the first to say……

Wishing a VERY Special Mascot, the Best Day Ever! 

He might not of been around so much lately (because of me) but I will try to let him out a bit more over the coming months! Time for me to try and join in a bit more! After all I miss you all so much Life is way too ‘normal’ without you all. 

Night night xxxx

Happy 5th birthday LP. I shall let you know the date of my next appointment then you can scurry over and jump in my pocket  to keep me company at the scan.

Thank you Londonlass /Sal for the virtual hug and kind words. It is oddhow much more scared I am this time around but as you say, that won't change the outcome. So I have been keeping really busy and not allowed myself much time on my own pondering.

If this rain stops I am going to a car boot with my daughter, granddaughter and future son in law to look for toys for the grandchildren and any decorative pieces to dress the marquee at their wedding next May.

Of course I am trying to put out of my mind tge thought I might not be here for it.

Have some yummy seed cake LP to celebrate your birthday. What do the initials stand for?

Thank you Seaspirit44. I have been so annoyed with myself that I kept on working. I should have rested after the radiotherapy. My employers have shown no compassion or consideration and have caused me so much additional stress.

Ah thank you Grogg/Carol,

I shall leave a message for my BCN tomorrow.

I just don't understand why they couldn't have just scanned me while I was at the hospital anyway rather than have to wait for an appointment to be posted to me.Our post is terrible which is why I missed my RT planning appointment. I never received the letter!

Thank you so much LondonLass for starting this thread x

A great big HAPPY BIRTHDAY, LP! Don’t get up to too much mischief today!

Have a good Sunday, Fruit Loops!

hugs xxx

Thank you so much Happyfeet1for the virtual hug. Your advice is quite right. I shall try to keep busy. The timing of this is grotty though as having kept working since the lumpectomy I have finally negotiated 2 months sigbed off sick from work. The plan was to relax and aid my recovery but in fact I am more stressed than ever! Work was a good distraction before but since they changed my role against my agreement I find it too stressful at the moment.

I have started reading again so will be getting through a few books and hoping the nice weather returns so I can get some walks in before the Race for Life next Sunday. 

There are over 200 staff at work but only 6 have made a donation. Weirdly 3 of those were people I don't even know but for whom Cancer has touched their loves through loved ones. It seems the same as friends since my diagnosis. It is wonderful people like you FruitLoops whom I didn't know, who have supported me whereas many of my friends have backed away, scared of catching it from me.

Good morning Mag123, please stop blaming yourself for what’s happening! It will just make you feel worse and still won’t change anything! NOTHING that you have done caused this! It was going to happen whether you worked or you stayed at home! Whatever this lump is and whatever caused it, had nothing to do with any choices you made! So please don’t try and make yourself guilty for something that was completely random and completely out of your control! 

Right Missy, now a little reassurance seems to be needed! Your Daughters wedding next year. It’s HIGHLY likely that you will not only be there, but that you will be having a fantastic time having put all this behind you! Even If, and it’s a big IF, this lump did prove to be another cancerous lump. It has been caught early and will be treated again! Crap I know, but certainly not the death sentence that you are predicting for yourself! 
Now I hear you saying “how can she be so bloody sure about that?” Well I’ve had Secondary Breast Cancer for just over 6 years now and it continues to be Stable and that’s with VERY little current treatment! Like your original diagnosis mine was hormone based and is slow growing! So highly unlikely to be a death sentence my love! 
So please, unless you hear otherwise let’s assume you will be on here in a years time showing us the photo’s of your Daughters beautiful wedding day and telling us that you went through a box full of tissues for all those HAPPY tears!! 

Hopefully you can get out to your Car Boot sale and find some great stuff! Leave all your negative thoughts on here, where we can hopefully reassure you and hopefully help you see a clearer less dark Picture

Always here to listen Hun. Sal xxx

Happy Birthday LP

WE ARE READY TO PARTY  

Thank you LondonLass for creating this amazing thread

And Happy birthday to the gorgeous Lucky Pants who has been such a comfort to so many