AWAKE.........

Gosh...am so sorry to read some of the difficulties on here...it is so good to open up a bit.

i do think councelling might help enormously too,

I was interested to read about your friend....having her pity party.

my letrozol,amongst other things,sometimes seems to exacerbate my feelings like that.Sometimes I won’t get up and say,”I’ve got nothing to talk to anybody ‘bout” and roll over .

I dont have a husband to treat me,but I do go out and get cream cakes sometimes...

Since my cancer it has been a long journey,nit only to get used to the changes in my body etc.,but also to learn to live without my work and friends and the banter ..

So I kind of have to make myself go out and meet people...not easy 

however,I have found things looking up as I find it so rewarding looking after children,(family and Sunday School).Its as if I had been waiting for the time to unleash my inner Schoolteacher.All along that was really what I wanted to do...

I have to admit that even though I left work with early retirement due to my Cancer,I was ready.It was as if Somebody said,”Enough”.

I have also found that I have become closer to some people who I wasnt close to before,and our relationship seems to help them,which is rewarding to me.

well,I am thinking of things to be positive about .... and I know that for some it isnt that easy.So I apologise.

I feel a bit better for getting a few things out.Thankyou for listening xxx

Thankyou everyone seaspirit44 im sorry you feel like this but it's nice you understand Tbh  im terrified of leaving them maybe it's the price of happiness. But I'm so glad you've found this love and am sure you'll enjoy many years together. I wish I could just stop my sad thoughts and enjoy the now. I try so hard and am so grateful but angry at the same time and grieve my carefree life  i love them so much but enough dwelling i know I'm very blessed x

Enjoy your holiday Karen toxophilite

I am actually glad that people are opening up to there feelings because we try so hard at times to hide them with the carry on motto,The old...

Or as it is “keep calm and carryon” i think it is how we are made really. But don’t you feel better to have opened up? I know I feel a bit better. I think it helps not to let them emotional burdens rule us, it isn’t easy that is for sure and occasionally we have the “Arhhhhh” but sometimes that emotional box of baggage needs to be opened as otherwise it will over flow and the control of shutting the lid down is no longer an option. Gentle hugs to all, because I know so many of you are having such a rough time and whether you share it or not, i want you to know everyone understands and are listening whenever your ready to share. We all like to have a laugh and giggle on hear, but these laughs give us courage too to face the darkness in our overburdened minds, everyone is or has been going through so much trauma yet are standing up against this awful disease.

Yes,have a great holiday toxophilite

And...Very well said,GBear!!

that made me feel better about opening up a bit.thankyou.

anyway,I cant sleep.it is everso starry I had a peek outside...the wind is blowing a hooley and goodness knows what else..

I wonder if it would be inappropriate to continue Scoogi’s story a bit more...

if you think its out of place,please say...

An-y-w-a-y....

Scoogi was just getting used to the pampering she was having chez LondonLass...she felt just like a princess in her newly -renovated Pamper Pad.But Those 2 Guinea Pigs (Scooter and Graham)had huddled together and they Had had Other Ideas....and Graham had been sent out to spy out the land...in disguise...

To all you lovely people, I know I've been missed by one or two and this was so heartwarming - "Thank You". 

I'm stil part of the Fruit Loop group and here trying to catch up on all - it takes me so long and then I loose track of where I am haha. 

I wanted to send you all my love and I'll write more over the weekend.  I still have to say my proper "Thank You's" your kind words and advise meant so much really helped me. 

I never thought I'd feel down like this with my approaching 'first anniversary' - I was merrily going along, even forgetting it at times - then boom it sneaked up on me, reliving it all. 

Right, I'm waffling - you all know I'm good at this. 

Sending Big Hugs to all, extra tight hugs to GBear, , Leolady56, seaspirit44, LondonLass, jacks77, Violetsniff

YOU ARE ALL AMAZING xxxxx

It sounds like a certain someone needs a hug too! So WhatHappened, I'm sending one right back to you.......

Anniversaries are tough! But you'll get through it Hun. We are all here for you if you need us.

Sending Lots of Love to all. Sounds like September is a busy month for Emotional Anniversaries. But the one HUGE positive! You are all still here and doing well......even if you don't feel like it right now!

Keep Going Fruit Loops! TOGETHER WE CAN DO ANYTHING! xxxx

Its true your anniversary of diagnosis and or treatment start is really strangely emotional WhatHappened , its a mixed blessing in one it brings all that trauma back to the forefront of our minds, the reality of it all but in otherways its also great i have gone through it and i am still here 

Bunny wanted to give you a hug and remind you that sometimes in the most unlikely places you can find a supportive friend. Who just seats there and so willing to listen.

I found this the other day and I think it really does apply to everyone 

Morning everyone, I think after such an emotional night we all need this.

Love and hugs Jenny xxx

Hi Everyone,

It's lovely how real and open everyone is on here without fear of criticism. Hugs to Optimistic seaspirit44 WhatHappened and the ever wise LondonLass. Violetsniff nice to hear your struggles and thanks for the lovely cute stories.

My struggles are nothing compared to others. But at moment  I feel like an old floor cloth being pulled in every direction to do different jobs and pleasing absolutely nobody. I'm working extra  hours as a nurse is poorly, babysitting other days up at 6am to drive over wild moorland. Boyfriend all cross with me as we went on  one of our day trips yesterday and I basically slept all day. Slept on the coach, walked round Ulverston in a dazed fashion before going to a Buddist Temple, which was great as there was meditation (I fell asleep ) and then a cream tea and home on the coach and you guessed it I slept on the coach. I wonder sometimes if I would be better without the Letrozole.

Love to everyone xxx

Oh Snowys Mum it sounds like you're doing a lot look after yourself. It's no wonder you fell asleep im sure he will understand really do you have anydays off to catch up on some rest ?  Just make sure to stay awake when you meet me xxx