I am 54 and I was diagnosed with bowel cancer after having a FIT test. I had emergency surgery to remove the tumour and part of lower sigmoid as it was blocking my bowel, on Thursday 16th April. I also had a temporary stoma fitted. I had my histology appointment last week. Stage 3, aggressive and found in lymph node and some blood vessels. I am spiralling and having the darkest of thoughts about all of this - it has all happened so fast. I am due to meet my oncologist on 4/6 to discuss chemo. Colerectal nurse and surgeon said would probably be 8 rounds so lasting around 6 months.
Terrified of the chemo. Terrified of it returning. I guess this is normal 
I know I have to forge my way through it and am grateful that the tumour was removed. Nurse said chemo was "putting the weed killer down before the weeds grow..."
Any support; advice, encouragement would be most welcome. Head is all over the place.
