Wait for Colonoscopy. Waves of emotions.

Hope it goes well - the waiting is the worst and I was convinced it was cancer 100% convinced. So try not to jump to the worst case. I did - I really did.

I feel a bit stupid now as I think I have worried everyone sick. I was sooo convinced, messaged my sister to watch over my boy - just horrible 

We went for a walk on the beach the day before and I was in a daze like it was one of the last days out before the news. Horrendous feelings and I wouldnt wish that fear and dread on anyone - it was horrible. Tearing up again now just thinking about it.

I knew what was important in life anyway but it dont half strike that home in a massive way. Family and your health is all that matters - it really is

Wishing you all the best...I really am and Im sure they will be able to sort you out

Hi all - had the large polyp removed on Monday - was a bit more unconfortable this time but it was still fine overall - just gas and air too, they tattooed the area they said

Nobody has mentioned cancer yet in fact I did ask at the first colonoscopy and they said no....but it is being sent away now for biopsy - is it a two or three week turnaround generally for biopsy results?? Just managing my expectations. What happens then do they call you in or do you get sent a letter?

I have to go back to do it all again in three months to remove some smaller polyps too - cant remember the number 

Ive been fine in general but getting a little scared again.... the big one has me bricking it - just for my boy again really hes first and formost in my mind immediately followed by my fiancee

So just seeing what timescales we are looking at really - on a postive note its kind of almost a week already - just didnt get much sleep last night!

Thanks

Hi Kiteboy. I can totally relate to your anxiety. Take a look at my post on controlling anxiety and panic: https://community.macmillan.org.uk/cancer_types/bowel-colon-rectum-cancer-forum/f/general/274907/controlling-anxiety-and-panic the hospital link on there has some excellent info and relaxation audio files which really helped me cope with the what ifs, pre colonoscopy fears etc. I'm now through 2 colonoscopies, a colon resection and on my penultimate cycle of chemo. The nursing and surgery staff were so caring and understanding that most of my fears were totally groundless. I hope all goes well for you.

Hi Kiteboy,

So sorry to bother you 

Your story is so similar to mine 

desperate for good news story’s to get me through whilst i to await my colonoscopy 

I have a 10 year old also, and spending time with him makes me so scared and guilty 

Are you ok and is there any update ?

Luke 

Hello, when I found a bit of blood, I knew right away it was serious, I was right. I find Google to be quite helpful, you just have to not think all of it applies to you, it might be might not. That's just me, I hope the best for you!

Oh know, this fills me with more dread 

Hi - well im still waiting for the results of my biopsy. Its comming up to a month now for the biopsy results...in Wales or where I am it can take up to 12 weeks which is torture really...so theres not much I can do about that. I have tried calling people but its pointless. Just have to wait now.

I have been thinking the worst all the time to the point where I just run upstrairs some nights to give my boy a cuddle out of the blue before he goes to sleep and tell him how much I love him.... so yeh its been tough really 

Luckily Ive been distracted by my missus giving me some DIY projects so thats taken my mind off things for a bit

They did get a big 3.5cm polyp out though and I have to go back in 3 months for a site check and to get a few smaller ones too. I think in a lot of cases they can tell just by looking. I "think" mine looks OK visually but of course they still need to check it 

Since the procedure though I have been struggling from time to time. However at the moment Ive just gotta get on with it whatever the outcome really. I know thats easy said than done but you just have to get your mind off it really

I have googled the different types of polyps, ie Kudo types i think it was but its all research articles more or less so your no better off anyway really

As far as I know there is a risk yes....but you just have to wait .....if my results are bad then yeh Ill probably go to bits but even then you still have to get on with it - its scarey as though and puts everything into perspective....like most its brought home how much I love my family and how much they mean to me

Hope it goes well though and try not to think the worst ....I know its hard....but also try to take mind off it too....it will drive you crazy otherwise. Ive really been there and if results are grim Ill go there again Im sure but the worry and stress arent good either so try to take it as it comes I suppose.

I will update as things move on - the waits are horrendous though!!!

Thanks for the reply 

best wishes to you and i hope all goes well for you in the future 

Just had my thrid colonoscopy just now. The doctor said the large polyp was high grade dysplasia which I gather is kinda good news I still havent had any official results after 8 weeks

The site check was OK today they also removed 8 smaller polyps too and there was one really small one left that is a complex one which Im booked in agan for in July and for them to think about in meantime

So I feel this is great news all round - theres obviously history in my family that to be honest I felt was kept from me or maybe not talked about or explained too much - not blaming my folks at all I may also have been oblivious to the process and seriousness too as I was much younger then too

I now know all the syptoms to watch out for and any sign really you should just go and get checked - ive basically told everyone approaching 50 to get checked

So anyone thinking of going for colonoscopy - just go its a bit uncomfortable but you have to get on with it

Im due back on a yearly schedule now which is great to keep on top of things. I made sure they know the family history

I felt really grateful to the people today for what feels like saving my life (they have) and I made sure I at least said thankyou to everyone in that room - they are heros....what a brilliant job (ok not glamorous) but what a job to save people.

I also had the camera down the throat for something else that runs in family for the first time today too and that I found bloody horrendous - felt the size of a garden goddam hose going down lol and the gagging was bad - BUT you have to get it done

So had that done and yeh they found inflammation that needs supressing so its good news that everythings getting a look!

Im keeping thoughts and prayers with everyone and hope you or family members can pull through everything your having to deal with.

Pob Lwc!

Hi,

any updates? How has everything gone. I’ve noticed on two occasions blood in my stool. Had a fit test which came back positive. Although I’ve just realised I’ve been spotting from a miscarriage that I thought stopped but in actual fact was still spotting. So don’t know if this effects my fit test results and if this was actually the blood I saw on my stool. I’m still going to follow up with the colostomy to be sure anyway