Good afternoon everyone x
The wait for results is so stressful as it is for all sorts if things.
I don't mean to sound dramatic but it feels like my life depends on the outcome of the MRI CT and biopsies.
I have been feeling more tired with he stress of these past few weeks and I'm a little concerned that I am now losing weight however I haven't necessarily eaten enough and have been fighting off the stress and anxiety of it all. So hopefully that's it.
I had bloods taken around 4 weeks ago and there were no markers or concerns with the results and my white blood count was normal.
The pain in my rectum doesn't necessarily seem worse but even the new pain killers I'm on, Naproxine, don't seem to hold off the pain for more than a few hours.
I guess I have just wanted to come on here and share how I am currently feeling. My Dad my friends are just saying try not to worry and maybe the results won't be as bad as you are fearing or led to believe as my consultant was very direct with me last Monday after biopsies and said he thought it was a tumor in my bottom!
Everything is just bewildering and like I'm an outsider looking on and then the panic sets in. This morning in bed I couldn't control my panic my propranolol tablet didn't help so I had to get up.
Does it become easier to bear when I get the results and know what I am dealing with? I'm hopeful that it hasn't spread and is treatable.
I'm so sorry if I am repeating myself from previous posts it's just lovely to be amongst a community of us all facing or that have faced similar
Much love to you all
PaddyBud
Hi Paddybud
I found not knowing the hardest time.
Once you know what treatment is then you can focus on that.
I was all over the place
Best wishes
Ann
Good morning
I found it difficult to function I’d wake up to flight or fight mode.
Unable to do either I just froze, I didn’t talk about it to anyone I didn’t join here until later
So you have here to talk if it helps, meditation or hypnosis apps give head space. I watched everything I wanted to watch. No news or stressful TV
Eating was a challenge well eating wasn’t but processing it was so I had no energy.
My hubby bought me complan meal supplements I made them with milk. So I had a small breakfast. A milk complan before a small lunch an small evening meal with another complan early evening
This made such a difference to my energy levels and I was able to do the exercises that I’d been asked to do at my consultation
Hope this helps
sending you a hug
Ann
Enjoy your meal Paddybud and keep chatting.
It does help.
I had people around me but I didn’t share my feelings with anyone as I felt I frightened them more. My daughter especially, I kept it hidden.
I don’t think it did me much good really but hey I’m the other side now
Best wishes
Ann
