Bowel cancer CARERS, FAMILY & FRIENDS chat

Oh Maggie I feel for you going through this it’s torture for you both

Helen x

Felt ok til I got here and receptionist hugged me and the tears flowed and that’s before I even get in!

Helen x

Jkee I don’t even like texts as it is same old same old thing.  I hate the telephone as well as I feel as if I am talking about him.  I really hope Friday is better news for you.  We did feel like a number the last time but that is the first time. She was just matter of fact.  I do feel like you, tummy, can’t be bothered, etc etc. trying to eat but can’t put weight on with anxiety and worry. Garden a complete mess, hedges need doing.  Nothing is going right at the moment. Feeling very sorry for myself and I still have not cried as if I do I won’t stop. Acting strong is wearing me out. 

helen, I wish you all the best with the counsellor.  I mat make an appointment to see mine when someone can sit with Les as I can’t leave him.

huge hugs to all xx

Let the tears flow The bank rang I cried the window cleaner said Simon is looking thin I cried I found I am better after letting it go hugs to you xx

Wish I could but I would not stop. I am not a hugger or a cryer and never have been. I must admit it would probably do me the world of good and stop these ectopics but then I can’t. I find it so hard.  I am lying I cried over the dogs dreadfully as they can’t speak for themselves.  Some say I am a little hard but that is on the outside not inside me as they have no idea how I actually feel and not coping. Xx

Bless You Jkee!  I will be thinking of you this Friday and just hope there is a little glimmer of hope there that they can do something for Simon. Helen I hope everything goes well with the counselling. Maggie I hope you have come back out the garage for a little while and the big girl pants are staying up. Good to hear that Les is trying to walk to keep his strength up a bit of positivity there. Oh ladies! I feel for you all just wish I could let those tears flow too but for some reason they refuse to come. Just a little `trickle` at a time at the minute when I wish a `tsunami` would happen. Take Care Everyone. Sending huge hugs which is all I can do for now. 

Vicky xx

Vicky head out of the garage today. Les not been out just to the doctors to make sure the stitches are dissolveable as we did not know they were there due to all the purple glue. Son in law sent one of his workers round and now I have grass and hedges that looks presentable.   Ominous back in 2 days to finish off.  I feel something is getting done outside and less to worry about. I can now concentrate on Les more.  Like everyone else this is so heartbreaking. Thank you for your continued support Vicky and Helen of course 

helen I hope counselling helped a little for you after everything you have been through.  You are a strong woman. 

Jkee and everyone else I will be thinking of you all.  Xxx

Hi Jkee!

Just a wee message to wish you well for tomorrow. I will be thinking of you. Try and get some sleep tonight I know it will be easier said than done but all you can do is try. I really hope they can tell you that they can do something for Simon. Sending lots of love and strength and huge cyber hugs too. Take Care. 

Vicky xx

I echo what Vicky says jkee. Sending you a big hug and you will be in my thoughts xxx

Hi Jkee. Thinking of you and Simon, and wishing you well for today x x