Anxiety levels and feel like i drowning

Perhaps you need to talk on Thursday about your fears. !. Im 60 and im terminal cancer,  was at first frightened but over the Weeks, ive come to terms with it. I accept that in the end everyone dies in sickness or old age. Anyways, evedyone is different. Ive made a mental shift for grateful for life i have had. I keep away from the future if possible.Take care.

Hi Bud 18

Completely normal but I think it’s also

valid to seek help from your GP to get you through this very tough patch ! I know once you have a plan of action you will have more confidence in the treatment . It’s absolutely horrible to know you have an issue and not be sure how they will manage it !

If it is a bone met in your elbow there is actually again a lot of radiotherapy type treatments along with chemotherapy options that you have never had to pull this back in control .

You definitely don’t have to feel positive just now . It’s a horrible knock to get but it’s not one without hope of good treatment and stability ! You could pop onto the secondary breast cancer forum and have a look at how the drs treat a spread to the bone ! You will see posts from a long time ago . We don’t see it too often on the bowel forum but as treatments are getting better and better it has been suggested that we will see more of it ! 

They will definitely give you a treatment plan and that’s given with the hope of mounting a response , That brings lots of hope !

Did they say what size the lung nodules are ?

Take care ,

Court 

Hi Court, they didn't say the size of lung nodules I was so shocked that for months orthopedics was saying oestomelitis on elbow then suddenly no it's cancer.

I will find out Thursday and let you know

Hi Bud 18, I feel exactly like you. Every time I get clear scans something comes up. First a liver mett, of which I had radiofrequancy ablation. Then I went for a colonoscopy in June, I had 2 polyps but because I had an enima they didn’t have a. Clear view of where the cancer originally  was. I went in on the 22nd July they found a cancerous polyp. I spoke to Chemo nurse but my report didn’t get back in time for last Thursday’s MDT so have to wait this Thursday and hopefully phone me Friday to see if they can do anything. So I’m hoping the pains I’ve been having is sciatica, like you no interest in anything, can’t eat, and I’ve mentioned chemo, I had chemo tablets with radiation that I had a complete response from. Ask them about radiotheraphy ablation. I’d never heard of it but I was high risk for operation. If they can do anything it might be the case of having too. I  don’t know about you but I feel like a novice when it comes to cancer, been in this situation for just over a year. I’m on anti depressants which I stupidly stopped because I felt better, but this latest one has knocked me. I’ve been off line because I went away for a few days and I don’t take my lap top because no WiFi. I couldn’t enjoy myself and my husband wants to go back again this weekend, finding everything stressful. Wishing you well and if you want to know about the ablation I’m happy to help. Love Nelly 55 xx

Hi Nelly, I really am a cancer novice I go tomorrow to see oncologist, I never was given chemo for bowel or lung mets, I think it's an awful journey, I really feel for you I know exactly how you feel, on Friday I go to Cornwall for a week, going to try and enjoy then come back to what ever treatment plan they muster up.

For my lung mets it was surgery so am defo going to ask about the ablation, as think my elbow will be surgery.

I have been having treatment on and of  for a year for oestomelitis in elbow including x Ray and ct scan then they decide after biopsy it's cancer, think that's what I am more worried about, 

I am sure my mind goes in to auto pilot as I feel they gonna be " there is nothing we can do"

I also on anti depressants I never coming of them lol 

I was first diagnosed 2018 with early stage 2 bowel cancer what a roller coaster.

Court has amazing knowledge, shame we don't live closer as I in Cambridge we could of started a support group lol

Will let you know how tomorrow goes

1. Hi Bud, I really do feel for you.  Like you I’m a novice at cancer and yes thank God for Court, Karen 62 and others for their knowledge. The only thing I regret is not taking Karen,s advice about googling I think that has so heightened my anxiety. I think I just keep looking for reassurance but I’ve just made things worse. I hope all goes well tomorrow I will be thinking of you. I’m getting my call hopefully on Friday. I have a pre arranged appointment with a surgeon next Wednesday he was the first person I saw after my colonoscopy, it I was cancelled twice put back once from the end of July till August now September. I wasn’t worried because I’d had treatment and was doing well. I feel extremely scared. My husband tell s me to stop crying, I can’t help it. I’ve not dealt well all the way through. Caring best wishes too you and hugs especially for tomorrow and enjoy your holiday. Can I just ask if the antidepressants are working and how long have you been taking them? I was a bit stupid coming off them when I felt well. I’m praying they will kick in. Whatever the outcome because I don’t want to keep living in this fear. Take care Nelly 55 xx

I been on them since I was first diagnosed, think they must help a bit as have positive moments then awful, I have never cried about this situation nearly did this time, I just panic go hot feel so ck, don't focus on anything, i think I am 49 otherwise healthy women work full time, I think I feel guilty as my mum dad and 2 daughters are struggling wish I could stop this for them

My husband has been amazing he keeps me busy sorry forgot to mention him arghhhh

1. Hi Bud I think I will need to stay on them, the one I’m on made me gain weight and I’m already overweight. I was worried about my live. I don’t just want to sit in fear, like I am know. I’m the same I just keep running to the toilet , feel sick, and having the pain in my back and leg that has a improved no pain killers for last two days. I did take diazepam when I was waiting for the operation, when that was cancelled, and offered chemoradiation my anxiety just got worse during and after treatment. I just started to feel more like myself a now got this cancerous polyp. My head is all over the place and mostly dark. Love and kindness to us all Nelly55 xx

Nelly1955

I think your Google searches might be limited as most people will just be finishing up post op chemotherapy at that point ! So not a like for like comparison. However they will have dealt with this situation before and have lots of experience in it !

All the best to both of you tomorrow! Hoping for good plans and a bit of a rest for you both over the weekend . 
You both have your questions lined up and will advocate well for yourselves !

Take care ,

Court