Can’t control my mind

MrsH2014d3a1a1 14 hours ago

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Hey! I was diagnosed with colon cancer on 02/09/25 during a colonoscopy.
after that everything moved so fast I didn’t have time to think about the what ifs.
07/10/25 I had anterior resection surgery as well as having my tubes and ovaries removed along with my appendix.
had a stay in hospital for a week then, the complication made itself know which resulted in me back in hospital the next day for another surgery to give me a stoma. All in all I had 3 weeks in hospital. my cancer was stage 1 T2 which im extremely grateful for and it’s all be removed. No chemo or any other treatment was needed.

it’s now February 2026 and I am terrified of everything, I’m thinking about too much and cannot stop myself looking on google.
I think I am driving myself mad at this point. I am still in a significant amount of pain which isn’t helping, I was referred to the pain clinic but I received a letter saying they can’t se me for 14 months and even after that they won’t be able to expedite my appointment??

I feel lost, alone and scared that now I’ve had cancer I’m at a higher risk of getting it again, I’m 41 with 5 amazing children and a precious granddaughter.
I just want to be happy and not worry anymore.

court 12 hours ago

https://www.workingwithcancer.co.uk/wp-content/uploads/2013/03/After-the-treatment-finishes-then-what.pdf

A lot of people have found this a helpful read .

Take care ,

Court

Helpline Number 0808 808 0000

Kareno62 2 hours ago

Hi MrsH2014d3a1a1 and sending you a big virtual hug. The link that Court has sent you is really good and there’s also some great posts on the board below

Life after cancer forum

Google is not good for you as it’s full of misleading information and out of date stats. It’s tempting to look at survival rates but they’re not helpful as you are not a statistic, you are a person. No two people are alike and you can’t compare with another person of the same staging who might have other underlying health problems or may be significantly older? Treatment is improving every year so the ‘5 year survival’ figures are from people diagnosed 5 years ago so not accurate.

Try to focus on the fact that the cancer has been removed. You will be regularly monitored for at least 3 years and I found that each clear scan or CEA check helped put the worry further away.
Worrying upsets your insides which doesn’t help when you’ve had part of your bowel removed and it won’t change whatever the future has in store for you. What it will do is stop you enjoying the present so try not to let it spoil your time with your family.

Does your local hospital have a Maggies Centre where you can go in to chat with someone or a local support group? You can put your postcode in the link below and see what’s near you?

https://www.macmillan.org.uk/cancer-information-and-support/in-your-area?pcode=

Hope this helps and take care

Karen x

Macmillan Support Line - 0808 808 00 00, 7 days a week between 8am-8pm