Panicking

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Ok. Now I am really panicking.  I know very well that one should wait for the "proper" diagnosis,  and that Dr. Google is a scaremongering ba%@rd... but I cannot help thinking over and over my symptoms and the conclusion that I will be found with advanced colon cancer... so what worries me is: had a 2 weeks constipation only relieved with cosmocol. Pain in the ascending colon. A positive FOB test. A little more tired, but that might be the stress. What are your thoughts? Does the pain in the side, wrapping on the back, mean the cancer has spread to bones/muscles? If yes, what is the chance of a treatment?

Oh, I have the first appointment with the specialist tonight....

Yours in total panic

  • Hi  and breathe. Letting your imagination run riot will cause stress which will cause an upset stomach, loose bowels and aches and pains all over. Thoughts are not facts. Bowel cancer, if it is that, is notoriously slow growing but very treatable and initial spread tends to be to the liver and lungs. Please don’t try and second guess the situation - you’ve not long to go before you see the specialist and then you’ll know what you’re dealing with.

    Sending a big hug and please let us know how you get on?

    Take care

    Karen x

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  • Thanks Karen. I am so worried... maybe I can eventually accept my demise, but the worse ache is thinking of leaving my wife and daughter, both the best you can possibly have... and my dogs.... I need to fight for all of them, but I don’t know if I will have the strength

    I will keep you posted. I expect today we will just organise a CT scan or a colonoscopy... we'll see... 

    Thanks and hugs back to you

    Marco

  • Hi Marco

    Karen has given brilliant advice.

    I just noticed that you haven’t had any tests done yet. 
    I had a Colonoscopy, a CT, MRI, ultrasound endoscopy with imaging and measurements all before a diagnosis and treatment plan. So you may be worrying about Cancer before being diagnosed 

    My husband had a few investigations which diagnosed IBS then Diverticulitis and polyps 

    No cancer. So it’s possible that you do t have cancer 

    Good luck with it all 

    Ann
     ‍Art

  • Thanks Ann. I hope you are right. I'd rather look like a fool for imagining the worse, than the other option. I wouldn't be so worried if it wasn't for the 2 weeks of constipation (no bowel movement at all) and the pain. Obviously Dr. Google has already signed my death certificate after I did the stupid thing of looking for information using Google...

  • Hi there 

    You don’t look a fool and you’re right to be concerned 

    My head was all over the place and I had terrible issues passing stools. I found eating challenging as I knew there was a rectal problem so I ate three tiny easy meals a day with two meal supplements a day I had much more energy and was able to exercise ready for my operation 

    If you want to read my positive back story click on my name  I was in for a LAR and had that cancer in the bin

    Take care of yourself. One day at a time

    Sending you a hug 

    Ann
     ‍Art

  • I am sorry Ann... I think that by mistake I "flagged to moderator your last comment.... finger trouble! I wanted to thank you again...

  • Don’t worry I’m always doing it. They’ve put me back. 
    No worries 

    Ann
     ‍Art

  • Hi, if it helps I had exactly those symptoms.  Went to A&E on Sunday 12th Feb. Got there at 10, was triaged and in cubicle by 10 past 10. Had x-ray and CT scan and was in theatre by 6. Had tumour removed , ended up with stoma, which is well manageable.  Tumour was cancerous but had spread to 5 of 28 lymph nodes. Surgeon got it all.  Now on 4 three week cycle of CAPOX as precaution. Feel very lucky.  Hospital were brilliant.  They acted very quickly.  Hope all goes well for you. Sending positive thoughts.  Helen.  X

  • Ps, yours may be nothing . Everyone is different but they will act quickly if they are concerned.  I had a few other warning signs that I played stick my head in the sand with.  X just remember that it can be treated.

  • Thanks AnamCara,  I am trying to stay positive. The specialist yesterday said he thinks the chances of it being a serious thing are low, due to the FIT test done 3 months ago by my GP being negative. But nonetheless he prescribed a coloniscopy for Friday next week... another week to wait, so hanging on to the specialist's words. Caught myself consulting with Dr. Google  again and gave myself a slap in the face. A little bit of a rollercoaster, but one week is not too bad... 

    All the best!