Flatulance

Morning you’re bright and breezy  little like the view from my window. It’s a beautiful crisp day 

I found lots of support here too. This is a space we can say how we feel and know others have empathy with our situation. Also it helps our loved ones. I am trying to spare my family. My daughter just bursts into tears even with me being upbeat. It’s so hard 

Mu husbands family think I’ve got something they may catch. Completely dropped us when our diagnosis started. Weird how we’ve been there for them many times 

Still Cancer let’s you know who your true friends are 

Have a lovely day 

PS. I had a key and card to use all toilets anywhere through my Ileostomy supplies  plus you can get a toilet map  

I’m reversed now but still go where’s there’s good toilets  I’ve never used the card but it’s there if I’m stuck x

Breeds = Breezy 

unable to edit anymore it’s been like it a long while. Sorry about any other typos x

I didn't have a stoma bag, although I think the winter has a lot to do with my down days then in-front of people I have to smile as no ones gets it really.

I will look into the card today although we have public toilets in the small seaside town I live in, oh my word they are filthy truly lol.

But if the card helps I won't say no it all helps I suppose never being on benefits Ive  worked hard all my life I kinda question why me why did I get cancer.

A friend is popping over today bowel cancer shit hey excuse the punt I hope we are allowed  to write that word.

Catch up soon :)

I have the key and card I am need now more as I am reversed I need the toilet much more and with urgency. My bowel was asleep for thirteen months and it seems to throw a wobbly when ever it wants. 
Have a nice day with your friend 

I cant edit either.since they did an update on the site.have asked the tech people but nothing has happened yet.despite messages from them saying its fixed .so my post chemo finger mistakes just have to stay.

Kath

Yes 

I’ve reported it they’ve asked me to screenshot and send it to them. I keep forgetting or I haven’t got time. 
Don’t worry about chemo fingers. I haven’t got that excuse and I’ve done some really bad typos 

xxx

Hi Flower123

In answer to your question, i'm sadly not back at work yet - surgery and chemo have and are a tad too much for my little body. And so I definitely hear you regarding loss of identity

I found having this JPG saved to my phone useful and reassuring. Can just flash it discretely at people and others just think you're showing a map or message

Morning all  I like that card  I called  yesterday  and had a really nice chat with Polly who directed me on to the welfare emotional team.

Thank you Polly and thank you for hearing me.

Work well I so want to become apprentice for Physiotherapy probably would be the oldest one but hey so much for advertising the NHS I mean maturer people deserve a chance hey.

So returning to work as phase return is for my mental heath and what I want to do its a few hrs a day I know that much, i won't stress about who likes me or not I won't stress about not speaking long words and I won't stress  that I love life, I won't ever stop being me.

I admit I have got depressed thru Oct to December I hid it well and when I sit on my own I cried boy did I cry, now I just say it I do need the support I can't do this by myself.

Big Beautiful Hugs x 

Hi Flower123.

Great news regarding your work aspirations.

Would it be too personal to ask how frequent your flactuance iht's you in a day?