Last chemo tomorrow hopefully

Hi Helen. 
I think your feelings are perfectly normal.

I was told that my operation was successful. 
the night before my follow up appointment with the surgeon I had the collie wobbles!

My hubby said Why.

I think I always will, my flight or fright mode kicks in as soon as I think of the cancer I had. 

I hope your last round goes well tomorrow. Treat yourself to  something nice. 
best wishes. Artsie. 

Thank you so much. Yes I agree it’s a new normal as they say. x

All the best  I hope it goes smoothly ! 
https://www.workingwithcancer.co.uk/wp-content/uploads/2013/03/After-the-treatment-finishes-then-what.pdf

Have you read this ?

When I read your post I think I must have had a similar reaction to your husband. Just so happy she had gotten through it but limited insight into the overwhelming emotions that accompanied it !Probably thought about it more in physical terms !

Take special care ,

Court 

Thank you so much Court. I’m at that phase of ‘ I can’t believe I’m finished’. I’m looking forward to reading your link. You are all so supportive. 
thank you x

Hi  and well done! Yes it’s a strange feeling - I found I was almost missing the chemo nurses! You will find that time is a great healer. Mike on the Life after Cancer site likens it to a car journey where the future is the big open windscreen in front of us and the cancer treatment is the fuzzy thing in the rear view mirror getting further away as we go on through life.

It’s natural to be worried about a reoccurrence but each clear scan will push that thought a little further back in your mind. I know you had a rocky start to your treatment but this time it has been completely removed and then zapped with the chemo shuck will hopefully give you a bit more reassurance?

The paper that Court has sent you the link for is very good and you can refer back to it if you’re having a bit of a wobble and be reminded that your thoughts and feelings are completely normal. 
Hope you have something nice planned to celebrate your last session?

Take care

Karen x

Thank you so much Karen. Yes I’m here at the oncologist waiting for blood results.  Nurse told me my scan is next week. If all ok it’s scans and wait and see. Otherwise, it’s more chemo. That threw me. The surgeon said he didn’t plan on seeing anything. It’s that uncertainty is scary too. Yes I read that link and it’s Brillant. And you right it’s a paper worth reading a few times. 
well here hoping the surgeon is right