Hi everyone
My name is kerry , it's podperson on the forum had to chose something , but I am a podiatrist.
Had the worst 2 days so far with pain and everything seemed to come together in a bad way . I acquired a water infection and in a cancerous bladder that's awful but tramadol wasn't helping the pain .
I was my gp and she put me on antibiotics,morphine slow release patches and oromorph. But the 3 chemist's i went to didn't have any i was in agony , I've started tapping my foot when I'm in pain it's a sort of involuntary thing it's so I concentrate on the tap and not the pain , I finally got the meds and started the morphine is working well but Catheterising is terrible, I can't stand it makes me shout out and I'm not one to worry about a bit of pain . Gp has given me instillagel to use but they say use the syringe to put into the urethra?? It's too big ? You can rub it on the outside , it takes 5 mins to work so I haven't figured how I'm gonna do that yet.
I can't drive anymore either every bump in the road is agony and makes me wince and sweat and that in turn starts the bladder off paining.
Sorry to dump this all on you guys you have been so kind , but I can't really tell my family this , they are so supportive but do not have perspective , as all lived ones do .and I have to act as normal as I can around my son he is autistic and 15 nearly16 but functioning around age 12 he knows and is coping but I don't want him to see me at my worst, I'm sure that's yet to come.
I'm off my food makes me wretch thinking of eating , I've got milk shakes and lucozade i manages a bite of toast yesterday. Is anyone else cold I'm froze , i used to be overly warm slept with the window open no quilt on but now I'm socks and thick pyjamas and hot water bottle, makes my other half happy I'm happy for him to be near now he is always like toast x
I'm sorry I've gone on , and not asked how everyone else is doing ? Xxx
